Have you ever found your heart arguing with your head? Yea? Me too.

Ashley tends to rock the boat between my heart and my head. My heart is screaming you love her and my head is whispering that’s true, but its okay not to be with her right now. It’s not the right time.

I let Ashley sleep until it was time for school to end for the day. And now we are on our way to her house to drop her off.

“Thank you.” Ashley says when I park the car in front of her house.

“Yea…” I watch as Ashley reaches for the door handle. 

“Um…” She stops her movements and sighs while sitting back into the car seat. “I…I miss you.”

“Ashley.” I sigh and look out my driver window. We’ve been down this road before.

Ashley and I dated for almost a year until some things got between us and I decided we should break up…give each other space. That was one of the hardest decisions of my young life. My heart is still with her, but my mind is thinking of our future.

“I know.” She shakes her head. “I know, I’m just…I don’t know.” I stay quiet while she sorts out her thoughts. Minutes goes by before, Ashley turns her body completely to look at me. “What are you doing on Friday?’

“I don’t know. “ I frown at her question. “I mean, I usually hang with Erin…” She rolls her eyes when I mention Erin’s name. “Stop doing that.”

“What?” She smiles innocently at me.

“You know nothing’s going on between Erin and me.” I say getting a little upset. “Even if it we’re…”

“Don’t.” She cuts me off. “I know your free to see whoever…I don’t need you to remind me,” She sighs and leans her head back into the passenger window.

“Yeah…”

“Will you go to the movies with me Friday night?”

“I don’t know…”

“Erin?”

“No.” I roll my eyes. “Gosh…Ashley…we just talked about this…”

“Baby…I was just joking.”

“I’m not your baby.” I cross my arms over my chest, a clear sign that I’m uncomfortable with this conversation.

“I’m sorry Spencer.” Ashley says softly. It gets me to look back at her. “Really…” She uncrosses my arms and takes my hands into hers. “I miss you. Come to the movies with me…please.”