I’m standing on my best friend’s doorstep, fidgeting. I’m not sure if I’m ready to ring the doorbell. Usually, I’d have already rung the doorbell and gone in, but that was then this is now.

I finally swallow and ring the doorbell. Only moments later, I hear a bark on the other side of the door. I can’t help smiling as I stick my hand through the mail slot. I get a lick before the door opens.

I push the door open and enter, shutting and dead bolting the door behind me. I pat the chocolate lab on the head and follow her up the stairs.

The dog leads me right into her room and walks over to the corner to her bed.

"Thanks Calorie," Spencer immediately says. Calorie gives a small ‘woof’ before lying down and it looks like she fell asleep.

I smile at the exchange as I close the door, "Hey Spence."

She turns her head towards me and smiles, "Hi Ash."

I put my bag on the floor and walk over to her, tipping her head up before placing a kiss on her forehead, and then placing my arms around her and hugging her, "How are you?"

"The same as always, Ash," she answers as she wraps her arms around me, "Got yourself a boyfriend yet?"

I frown slightly and have to suppress a sigh and instead fake a laugh, "No, of course not."

She giggles, "Dumb boys."

"Yeah," I let go of my hold on her and sit down in front of her. I take a deep breath, "You really want to do this?"

She blushes, "Yeah, I trust you more then anyone else. I always will."

I swallow, "But I mean, wouldn’t you rather have your mom or doctor teach you?"

She sighs, "I know the basics, but I want to see it, Ash."

"Ok, Spence, but I need to tell you something."

"Yeah Ash?"

I take her hands in mine as I try to keep from crying, "I’m gay."

"Ok…" she says as if she’s waiting for more.

I look at her, "That’s it."

"Oh, ok."

I stare at her for a moment, "That’s it?"

"Well, I dont have any fireworks, sorry."

I smile, "My sarcasm is really showing in you."