ashley was laying in her room on her bed innothing more than a pair of boyshorts and a longsleeve shirts

she had been that way all day

hadnt moved an inch and just allowed herself to think

clearly and unflitered

she was depressed of course

you would be too if your girlfrend..umm exgirlfreind gave you the

"its not you its me" speech

even she was surprised at the speech she received

granted she had heard it numourus times but the whole thing was different

sure she was always conffident almost to the point of cockyness

but that wasnt what spencer had wanted apperently

ashley had already decided that she didnt know what tot do or where to start to pick up the piecess

she thought the girl was ‘the one’ but turned out to be wrong in the long run apparently

she tried distracting herself from her pain but couldnt sure if she wanted to she could have turned back to her old ways and drank herslf silly just to come home and grab a razor blade but she didnt want to hurt anymore and that was the difference between now and then,then she would have embracced the pain and intensifiyed it even but she didnt she sat in her room and thought about where her life was going

finaly she decided she need to just move on but couldnt figure a way

she knew music would help

always had but for some reason she couldnt find the right song to get out of her mood

even her weird al collection didnt help

she decided to dance it out but the problem was to which song

it had to get her moving so much she wouldnt be able to breath but the lyrics had to at least relate in some way

finaly she came across a cd that was givven to her having only listened to it once she knew it was the one she needed

she walked over to the over priced stereo and placed it in the changer turning it up till it was on full surpund sound she let the music take her around the room while she thought and connected the lyrics with her thoughts

A little sexual frustration
Combined with lack of motivation
And a loss of concentration
I’ve got a strange disease
I can’t concentrate on work
My libido’s gone berserk
Now I’m sweating through my shirt
I’ve got a strange disease