I just laid there, not knowing what to say. Ashley cheated on me. She cheated on me. She fucking cheated on me. I felt like crying but nothing ever came, just pure anger. I felt her shift on top of me so that she could see me but I avoided her eyes as I slipped out from under her.

                “Spence?” I shook my head, looking around for something to cover myself with before finally just grabbing the sheet off of the bed. God, it smelled like us. I had just given everything over to her and now she was telling me this. “She didn’t mean anything to me.” She said, sitting up.

                “Oh because that makes it all better!” I finally yelled, making her flinch. “It was four weeks Ashley! Four fucking weeks! And you couldn’t stand it so you fucked a stranger!” I was shaking now. I had no idea what to do with myself.

                “It was so hard not being able to be with you! I got drunk and she was there, she kind of looked like you and I –“

                “I really don’t want to hear about it. I just – I sat around here waiting on you and did nothing but think about you while you’re off with other girls!”

                “Well it’s different for you Spencer. I mean, I’m surrounded by pretty girls who are throwing themselves at me while you’re here in the middle of nowhere with no one else but Jamie; and you’re not even attracted to anyone else but me! It’s really fucking hard!”

                “How do you know?”

                “What?”

                “How do you know that you’re the only person I’m attracted to?” She looked unsure now, even though I was just bluffing. “Maybe you should go,” I finally whispered, not looking at her. I knew that she was crying and if I saw I’d break down.

                “Come on Spencer, we should talk about this.”

                “I don’t want to talk about it. The fact that you couldn’t even keep it in your pants for four weeks is enough; then you slept with me without even telling me first!”

                “I am so, so sorry!” She said, getting off the bed and dropping to her knees in front of me. I felt shock register as she wrapped her arms around the back of my knees and buried her head into the sheet that surrounded me, sobbing. “God, I missed you so much and I didn’t – couldn’t fuck her. I just want you to know that. We came so damn close but I – I finally realized that I was destroying the best thing that has ever happened to me and I ran Spencer. I really did, I got up and ran out of my own bedroom. I just kept seeing your face.” I could hear the brokenness in her voice and I felt my heart breaking. It was a little bit better now that I knew she hadn’t fucked her but it still hurt like a bitch that Ashley would even touch someone else.