Spencer’s P.O.V

Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.

She was gone again.

I missed her but then I always missed her so I should feel used to it.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don’t understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
‘Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin’ my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don’t have much to say,
So, I want you to know it’s a little fucked up,
That I’m stuck here waitin’, at times debatin’,
Tellin’ you that I’ve had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where’d you go?"

But I wasn’t. I wasn’t used to her never being around and I know I never will be.

I know she has to work. I understand she cant just up and quit.

I would never ask her to. All I wanted was for her to be happy.

But in the same sense is it selfish to want to be happy myself?

My days revolved around her calls that hardly came.

I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.
Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone,
Please come back home…

I tried getting by without her home. I never turned to anyone else to help me thru this I didn’t even turn to her and maybe I should have.

Who knows. I don’t. and I never will because I didn’t take that first step.

I didn’t ask for much. At least I don’t think so.

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin’ my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I’m doin’ fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I’ll tell you, I want you to know it’s a little fucked up,
That I’m stuck here waitin’, at times debatin’,
Tellin’ you that I’ve had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where’d you go?"

When she was home I still didn’t see her much. She said she was tired and I get that.

Touring the world can take a lot out of you. I would assume at least.

I felt alone. I had a girlfriend and I felt alone.

Just didn’t seem right to me.

I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.
Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone,
Please come back home…

I thought about just giving up.

Finding someone else to be with even.

But its just so hard to let go when you don’t want to.

I wanted to be happy. I wanted her happy.

I wanted US to be happy together.

I want you to know it’s a little fucked up,
That I’m stuck here waitin’, no longer debatin’,
Tired of sittin’ and hatin’ and makin’ these excuses,
For why you’re not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don’t really know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone,
I guess I’ve had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won’t be here and you can sing it…

But in the end I needed to think about myself first for once.

So I ended it with her.

She took it…surprisingly well.

I don’t know if she was just trying to be selfless, or if she was trying to make it easy on me. And frankly I didn’t give a damn at the time.

I was pissed that she basically proved what I had already known.

She didn’t care about me. And she didn’t want me anymore.

Actions speak louder than words.

And sometimes…no action speaks an enormity of words.

Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.
Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone,
Please come back home…
Please come back home…
Please come back home…
Please come back home…
Please come back home…

                                     END.