BPOV

I couldn’t find the strength to pull my self up off my floor so I stayed there, I wish Jacob would understand that I’m nothing without my Edward! I’d rather die!

“Bella, did u do what I asked?” his false sweet voice filled the room like a bad smell.

“Oh it was a request, I’m sorry I thought it was a threat!” hate filled my words but I didn’t care, that was how I felt so I wasn’t sorry.

“Bella you’re so hot when you’re angry.” I guess he thought it would soften me up, but it only made me want to punch his face in so hard, that the dent in it would never pop out again. I tried to run but of course my clumsiness of stopped me before I could even get up, just great. Jacob stood me up and got way too close for my liking, and held my chin, with so much strength I felt like I was up against a brick wall, and he kissed me. If you want I’ll say I hated it but then I’d be a liar, it was surprisingly, kinda, maybe, ok it was good! But then he forced his tongue in my mouth, and I’m not lying when say it was nothing like Edward’s kisses, it was a terrible experience, I miss my Edward and his slow and passionate kisses, they’re filled with love, except for that strange feeling that tells me he’s holding something back, but I try to forget about that feeling, because I know that he loves me, like when his eyes would silently ask permission for his tongue to enter my mouth, but I suppose that wasn’t Jacob’s style. I wanted to throw up, but instead tears just poured down my red cheeks, they were probably going to be permanently red now, but not from embarrassment for once for anger, and misery. He pulled away because he was furious that I was still upset over Edward, “I can give you something he never could, I don’t know why you like him!” he spat furiously. Wait, what does he mean by he could give me some thing that Edward couldn’t, well I know that Edward can’t have children, but I was ok with it, as long as I have him, I’m happy. When I didn’t answer him he said “did he lie to you about that too? He can’t raise a family.” he said with a mischievous smirk,