19.10 Friday

I thought I wouldn’t see Edward in the morning, but when I went out of the house, I saw a familiar car beside the gateway. My heart jumped; he wasn’t mad at me yet. Or he was there only to tell me that he would leave me alone? Killing me here and now was out of question. I still didn’t feel the death.

Not knowing whether I should be glad or frightened I got in the car. Edward didn’t even greet me, and he pulled away at once. His face didn’t show any feelings. I was watching him, waiting for him to finally say something, but I miscalculated; he was as silent as a statue. And he looked like a statue; only his hands gently moving on the steering wheel were showing he was still alive. Alive? Could I use this word to describe a vampire’s existence?

Before I realized it, we were parking in front of my school. I was going to get out disappointed, when Edward grabbed my hand.

“We need to talk.” He said in a blank voice.

“Now? I’ll be late for school.” My voice was trembling, I didn’t know why, though.

He nodded with understanding. “Then I’ll fulfill my promise from yesterday and take you to ‘the Maple-street’s after your classes.” He let go of my hand. “And I’m sorry for causing you troubles.”

I understood he meant my mother and shrugged. We used to argue all the time. At least we had a reason, other than the mess in my room and bad marks, now. How much variety Edward had brought to my life!

“See you later.” He smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes.

When I was sitting in my classrooms, I wasn’t thinking about what the teachers were saying at all. I reproached myself that I hadn’t let him say what he wanted to say. He would have disappeared from my life faster than I could have blinked and I could have returned to my old everyday routine. And now I had to delude myself for the next few hours. However, I could give anything just to prolong this exceptional situation for at least few minutes. Seeing my desperate state the girls didn’t accost me even once. They let me look at all versions of my future appointment in ‘the Maple-street’s’ and plan my talk in peace.