Almost

When I woke up, it was still dark outside. Only a little bit of moonlight shined trough the open window into my bedroom.
I rolled over, searching for his cold chest.
But…there was no cold chest.

“Edward?” I asked, my voice very soft. I won’t wake up Charlie.
There came no response.
“Edward?” I asked again. 

“You are awake already?” A high, angel-voice said. This was not Edward. 

“Alice?” Why was she here? Where was Edward? 

“Wouldn’t it be better if you close your eyes again? You need your sleep.” 

“Where is Edward?” I asked, already panicking. 

“Silly Bella.” She came to my bed so I could see her. “He may not be here right now, you know that.”
Was there something I missed? This must be I nightmare. 

“Why…” 

“Hello…, earth to Bella.” She waved her hand in front of my face. “It’s your last day, night, as Bella Swan!”
It took me a moment to realize what was going on.
And I agreed with my thoughts. This was a nightmare. 

“You’re going to be a Cullen tomorrow. Today actually, it’s four a.m. already.” She sounded really excited. She came sitting next to me. 

“Oh, no.” I muttered. 

“What? Are you…going back on your word?” She looked straight in my eyes. 

“What..no. Of course I’m not!” 

“What’s the matter then?”

 “It’s just…the whole party and…all the people and…” 

“And what?” she laughed now, the whole bed shuddered. 

“And…well…” How could I said this. 

”…And kissing in front of whole Forks and probably whole Washington too!” So, now I told her.

“Only forks.” She said calm, with a bit disappointment in her voice.

“The church would be too small. It’s already full now. And what about the kissing? You two do nothing else than kissing the whole time.” She laughed again. 

“I know.”I wrapped my arms across my chest . 

“Are you angry with me now?” She asked, pretending she was innocent.
What could I say? Of course I was a bit angry, but I couldn’t be. I was the one who let her organize the wedding.
I could have foreseen this, even if I haven't a talent like hers. 

“No, of course I’m not. I gave you the permission to organize it so…”
She wrapped her arms around me in a big hug. Maybe a little too big. 

“Can’t…breathe, Alice.” I tried to say.

“O, sorry. I still have to get used to it.”
Now I laughed. 

“And when you finally are, It won’t be necessary anymore.” 

“True.” She laughed with me.
I thought about that for a minute. 

“Alice?” 

“Yes?” I looked down to my hands. 

“What if…I don’t survive?” 

“You will survive, Bella. I can see it.” She took my hand. “Don’t worry." 

“But I will be different.” 

“Yes you will, but not much. You will always be Bella Swan.” 

“First, I will be Bella Cullen,” Alice laughed with that. “And second, I will change. In a bloodthirsty person..vampire…whatever. Who wants blood more than anything
else on earth.”
Alice stopped laughing. 

“What if…” I muttered. “I’m a bit worried.” 

“Worried about what? You know everything is going to be fine.” 

“I going to need blood…” 

“True.” She sighed. 

“More than I need Edward…”
She thought a couple of minutes about that. 

“Maybe…” she said finally. “But you’re going to be strong. Maybe you need Edward more.” 

“But I want Edward more than anything else on earth.” 

“I know that.” Alice said softly. “It’s going to be fine, really.” 

“Really really?”
She laughed again.

 “Really really.”
We both laughed now.

 “Now, take some sleep, almost sister, Bella Swan.”
I laid myself down again.

 “Alright almost sister, Alice Cullen.”

 “See you in a couple of hours.” She said

 “Wake me up at seven a.m. at least.”

 “Let’s say six thirty.”I sighed.

“Kay…”
It doesn’t take long before I slept again.
Thinking. Worrying…