Moments

“Edward?” I asked, I sat on his lap in the warm grass. His skin glimmering in the sunlight.

“Yes?”

“What do we do after I changed, I mean Charlie and Renée…”
He sighed.

“I don’t know, maybe, when you’re strong enough, we can go visit them sometimes.”
His cold hand brushed the skin of my neck.

“Maybe,” I sighed. “If I’m going to be strong enough.” I added soft, but he could hear it.
His arm held me tighter.

“You will be.” He whispered in my ear.

We sat there for hours.
Knowing the moment came closer.
Knowing I was being Bella, and he was Edward forever.

I thought about all the moments we had together, ranged my whole life –my life started when I came to Forks.
There were a couple of bad experiences…No. A lot, but they’re all balancing with the good ones.
Twilight came closer, the night came. Was it that late already?
Edward moved.

“Diner time!” He said while stretching his arms. “I’ve got you some pizza.”

“I’m not hungry.” I said, why does it have to stop.

“Are you sure you aren’t a vampire already, you’re never hungry when I ask.” He smiled his crooked smile for me.

“Maybe, it’s because I need you more than food.” We laughed together.
I ate in silence for a couple of minutes. Then he started asking stupid, unanswerable questions.

“What are the most terrible things ever happened to you?” He begin.
I couldn’t answer that one immediately.

“That’s difficult, a lot of things happened past years.” I said trough my piece of pizza. He sighed and nodded.

“Just answer.”

“I think it’s a very recent one, very recent.” He made a face.

“Which one then?”

“I think saying goodbye to Renée and Charlie.” He laughed.

“That’s it, saying goodbye. Not the multiple vampire attacks or me ceasing them?” He asked unbelievable.

“I think…” I whispered. He laughed again.

“So, and the good things?”

“You know that already.” I said. I walked around the table to sit on his lap.

“Mmmh.” He kisses my hair. “I just wanted to hear, to know it for sure.”

“Edward,” I kissed his lips softly, “You are the best thing that ever happened to me and that will ever happen to me.” His lips moved urgent on mine now. Concentrate, Bella. But I couldn’t. My breath became uneven and my heart started racing. I knotted my fingers in his bronze hair, he allowed it.
We kissed for several minutes. The pizza was cold already.

“Edward…” I whispered trough our kiss.

“Yes, love.”

“I think…”

“You think what?” He started kissing again.

“I think I’m ready.”

“Ready for what?” Why won’t he understand!

“Ready for…you know…”

“Oh…but…”

“Yes?”

“That’s quick.”

“The sooner, the better.”

“Well yes…another bite of your last pizza?” He added sad.

“Oh, don’t be so dramatic!”

“Dramatic? It’s the end of your life, Bella!” He stared at me for a long minute, anger in his eyes. But he controlled it.

“It’s also a beginning…” I whispered, he calmed down.

“True…” he kissed me again, a serious kiss. I felt all his emotions in this kiss, anger, sadness…but also happiness and love. Lots of love, and passion.
He took me in his arms, hold me tight and ran upstairs.
He laid me on the bed and closed the door.
He laid himself next to me.
We were silent for a couple of minutes again.
He broke the silence.

“This is it then…”

“Still dramatic…”

“Sorry…”

“I know…” We were silent again, laying on the bed. Watching the moonlight reflecting on the walls. This is a moment I would cherish. I was the last of my humanity…