Changing

“Edward,” I asked without a breath –actually in sounded more like screaming -, the fire was burning trough my body.
Edward was still concentrating on the sound of my heart that was slowing down easily.

“Yes, love?” His voice sounded sad.

“I hurts, I can’t handle it. Please stop it!” I was crying, tears rolled over my cheeks into his hair.

“Hold on. It will pass. I’m here and I am not going anywhere.” He said to calm me down. I wish Jasper was here, that would help, but we were alone on honeymoon. He won’t be here –for our privacy -, neither did Alice. It was already terrible for her to see me suffer so much. Probably she was crying in Jaspers arms now, waiting for her visions to stop, for my heart to stop.

“Edward please!” There was too much pain. “You know I love you, and I always will, but please stop
it. Kill me now. I will see you in heaven. Please, Edward!”

“No, Bella. I can’t do that. I love you too much for that. The pain will pass, I promise. And you are strong, you can handle it, I know that.” He didn’t look away from my face, still waiting for my heart to stop beating. He brushed my cheek. With his other hand, he took mine to help me through this. “Shall I call Jasper?”

“No! Don’t leave me, I know I want this, I…” I couldn’t speak –scream –anymore. Everything went black. I tried to resist it, but I couldn’t.

“Bella?” His soft, panicking, voice sounded all around the bedroom, but I couldn’t answer.
I felt Edwards hand release mine.

“Carlisle?” He sounded in panic…
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“I don’t know, she doesn’t answer anymore.” Was he crying?…
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“I know, I tried already.” No, he can’t cry…
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“Probably.” But he sounded so…
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“Yes, please do that.” What?…
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“See you soon.” What, Edward. What’s going on?… But I couldn’t find my voice.
He took my hand back.

 “Everything’s going to be fine, my love.” He kissed me wherever he could reach without leaving my chest. I could hear everything he said, and I felt his cold, marble lips on my skin. But the fire kept me down. I couldn’t response. I wish I could.