I slept in, waking up around noon to the smell of breakfast. Emmett had left to meet Carlisle, Esme, and Rosalie at the airport. Jasper and Alice stayed with me. It was going to be a long day inside the hotel.

I kept hearing Jane’s voice in my head, and every time, I cried. Jasper spent his day in the corner, calming me once in a while. I was grateful for his help and sorry he had to suffer. But, he didn’t say anything.

Lunch came a few hours a later. A few more hours, and dinner came. Shortly after I finishing dinner, Emmett walked in. Carlisle, Esme, and Rosalie followed him. I continued to stare at the door, praying Edward would walk in and surprise me.

“I’m sorry, Bella.” Carlisle put a firm hand on my shoulder. I couldn’t believe Edward was gone. My angel was gone. Tears began to fall and Jasper let them.

Jane really had Edward.

The room was silent for a long time. The Cullens let me cry. I could never, would never, live without Edward. There had to be some way to find him – to get him back. I hated myself again for going to the meadow. Things had only gone from bad to worse that day. The thought of losing Jacob was one thing, but I would not tolerate losing Edward.

“Don’t worry, Bella,” Alice said. She walked over and hugged me close. We lied on the bed as I continued to cry, soaking her shirt. I felt my pain as well as the sorrow of the others. I had lost a part of myself when I knew Jane had Edward, but so had the Cullens.

What felt like an eternity later, Carlisle decided to break the dreadful silence. “Bella, can you tell us what happened in the meadow?”

Fresh tears formed at the thought. I had spent the last few days trying to forget, trying to believe Edward was alright. Now, I was asked to willingly go back. I would have to remember the meadow, holding Edward, hearing Jane, seeing Edward’s pain, and running.

I inhaled deeply, trying to push the tears away. It would never work, but after several breaths, I managed to find some voice to speak.