Jasper Cullen

I am a vampire fighting in a war

I wonder what future I have with this life

I hear the cries of my enemy, of my prey, and of my own conscience

I see their faces and feel their pain as I feed; and I want, so much, to escape it

I want to change, to find something different to do

I am a terrible being for my actions

I pretend to be okay, to feel better with Alice

I feel safer and happier with a family to support me

I touch Alice’s pale, beautiful skin and smile, knowing I get to spend eternity with her

I worry I’m not worthy of this new love and care I receive

I cry, upset every time temptation rises to the surface and I lose control

I am pleased with this way of life, though it can be difficult at times

I understand Bella’s significance to Edward

I say it will get easier; I won’t be tempted as much with time

I dream Bella will always be safe with me, she is so important to the family

I try to out-smart the thirst, be stronger than it

I hope things will never change from their current perfection

I am complete with this family who loves me just as much as I love them