His rough hands were cupped around my face, his palms burning my cheeks, but it didn’t hurt, it felt… nice. It felt almost like it had felt when Edward had held me, all those long months ago. Except there was something missing; I loved Jacob, but not in the passionate, fierce way I loved Edward.

“Bella.” He moaned softly.

I froze. I hadn’t made the decision yet. I didn’t know if I could do this. Alice had returned, but I knew Edward never would, he had made that much clear. My eyes welled up with tears as I realised that I was going to have to make a decision; for better or for worse. If I rejected Jacob now, there was no guarantee that he would return to me, and I was sure I couldn’t face loosing him. But Edward’s kisses had been like fairytales, they had seemed like the sole purpose of my existence.

Keeping his dark eyes on my tear filled pair; Jacob began to bend his face towards mine. My heart started to race, but I was still undecided.

Maybe it would be easy – like holding his hands or having his muscled, strong arms around me. Maybe it would feel nice. Perhaps it wouldn’t feel like betraying Edward, betraying myself.

His face looked focussed, his eyes hungry, reminiscent of how Edward’s used to look whenever we got this close. I knew that he had been waiting for me, wanting this moment since I had gone to La Push to ask him to fix up the motorcycles.

I took a deep breath, and leaned towards him, my lips meeting his, which were much softer than I imagined. He responded, opening his mouth slightly, his tongue grazing mine, his hot, coarse hands running through my hair and massaging my scalp.

My arms hung around his neck, my head tilted up. As the kiss deepened, I realised that it didn’t feel wrong at all. Not having had much experience of relationships before moving to Forks, I knew that if I had never met Edward, I would have thought that this was true love. I wouldn’t have believed that anything could feel better than this.

But, I had met Edward. There was nothing anyone could do to change that fact. He had tried to disappear completely – even taken everything that could remind me of him, but he had left behind a broken heart, and a gaping hole in my soul. A hole I so desperately wanted Jacob to fill.