Warning: Adult content. I did cut it off sooner than my adult stories, but it’s still explicit.

Chapter Dream a Little Dream

Bella

I’d had many hours to brood over my conversation with Edward yesterday and one thing was for certain – I was an idiot. I wanted to take back all the hateful things I’d said. I’d let my temper get the better of me. It was no wonder, considering everything I had to deal with all at once: Edward, Charlie, transformation, Dylan, Tanya. And that was only the in your face part of it. There was still the fact that I hadn’t given Renee and Phil a proper goodbye.

Still, I’d give anything to have handled our conversation better. Maybe he’d be in here with me right now, his arms wrapped comfortingly around me while humming my lullaby softly as I drifted off to sleep.

As it was, Edward had made no attempt to talk to me since yesterday. Not that I blamed him. I’d been horrible to him lately in an attempt to punish him for leaving me last year. Secretly, I’d hoped that he would at least try and talk me out of becoming a vampire. Not that that would happen because I couldn’t bear living here for two years as a human, but I’d welcome the few moments spent discussing it. Any reason to hear his sweet voice and see his perfect face.

As my transformation drew near, I found myself wishing it was Edward’s venom that would burn its way through my body erasing my humanity and replacing it with something better, something worthy of him. Like that would ever happen. He’d rather see me dead than a vampire.

I sighed in frustration. I’d been cooped up in this room with only my thoughts for company because Aro seemed to think I was in a fragile state. Marcus gave me the occasional update, but he was editing things. Each time he visited me he looked a little more tired and seemed to choose his words very carefully. Right before my eyes he was becoming that cold, intimidating, blasé vampire that couldn’t care less about anything. Demetri had clued me in on Marcus’s sad tale – about his marriage to Aro’s sister and her death.