Chapter 12

Bianca quietly gazed upon Lena as she slept. There was something indescribable about being able to do this. It was such an intimate act, one she knew shed never give up or tire of. She loved waking in the mornings, her head resting on Lenas chest, hearing the steady heartbeat, the warmth – the love radiating from her.

It was… is wonderful.

She reaches out and traces Lenas features, her thumb lightly caressing Lenas cheeks, her full lips, and the length of her neck. Her eyes pausing at Lenas ***** – unable to stop – Bianca turns her head to the side, trying to get a better look. She found herself mesmerized – watching the soft swells as they follow Lenas breathing pattern.

Lena opens her eyes slowly and smiles as she notices Bianca simply staring at her chest. She had woken without Biancas notice when she felt the feather-like touch on her cheek.

She quickly closed her eyes unable to indulge herself in her favorite pastime of watching Bianca when she saw Bianca turn in her direction – the last thing she wanted to do was embarrass her.

Lena, Bianca whispers as she looks into Lenas face. I cant tell you how many times Ive dreamt about us being together again – making love. Its always different – were different. Sometimes… sometimes youre a pirate… and Im the damsel youve kidnapped for ransom… Bianca smiles wondering how her imagination came up with such things.

Lena could not believe what she heard. A pirate? Bianca a damsel being held for ransom… she would have to remember this tidbit of information for later.

Other times were the same people, but the circumstances are different. Were married, we have children – you have twins… thats something Im dying to see…

Married? Pregnant? Twins?

So many scenarios run through my head. But, my favorite dream, is about our first time together, Bianca sighs. When your hands touched me… She gasps as she recalls the feeling. I wish I could tell you how it felt, how nervous I was, how I thought youd be disappointed in me somehow. I know weve talked about my past – my experiences, which werent many, but I have to tell you this, after that night – I never want to be with, nor do I see myself with anyone else.

Lena listened, her heart racing beneath her breast.

Lena… I cant wait for Miranda to be born … shes going to be so lucky to have you as a mom…

Mom? Mirandas mom? Dear God, please let me have heard that correctly. Lena had always wondered about her role in Mirandas life. Yes, Bianca had said things to her that would placate her fears, but she had never heard Bianca state so openly – granted Bianca thought she was sleeping, her ultimate role in Mirandas life. Lena wasnt sure shed be able to maintain the faade much longer.

Shes going to see that part of you that only a few people have. Shes going to know youre someone she can tell anything to – something I should have done, Bianca shook her head. Shes going to love you so much, just like I do. I cant wait to see you holding her for the first time, its going to make me cry…

Those had better be tears of happiness, Lena said, unable to keep quiet any longer.

Bianca gasped in surprise. Oh no… how long?

From your dreams.

Oh God… Bianca hid her face as she blushed.

No, Bianca – dont hide please, Lena said her eyes bright with tears as she gently raised Biancas face. You see, you found the words you wanted to say in your dreams.

I meant it, what I said. Every word.

I know you do sweetheart, I know. I felt it here, Lena took Biancas hand in hers and placed it on her chest. Feel how my heart beats for you? I never want to be with anyone else Bianca. You and Miranda have shown me how to love again. It is a gift I can never repay you for. I can only hope that maybe one day… your dream, about us being married…

One day, Bianca answered softly as she bent down and kissed Lena. Their lips parted slowly, each taking the time to get lost in the moment.

Wow.

Bianca grinned. Yeah, wow – that was kinda…

Electrifying?

It was shocking wasnt it.

Bianca.

She laughed, Sorry I couldnt help it.

As Biancas laughter died down, they stared into each others eyes, searching the depths, seeking answers to the question: was this the moment they had been waiting for?

As their lips came into contact once more, they felt the same tingling sensation as they had earlier – their connection, the one that had pulled them together reinforcing itself.

Lenas hand tangled in Biancas hair as she deepened the kiss – her tongue sliding against Biancas. Lena knew in the furthest recesses of her mind, there would be no late night shower – no biting of her lips to keep from moaning out loud.

Bianca responded with equal fervor, her hand trailing down Lenas chest, until she was cupping Lenas breast. When Lena did nothing to stop her and in fact deepened her kiss – Bianca groaned and began to fondle her.

Lena felt a rush of desire flood her body, ending between her legs. She had never felt the intensity she was experiencing as Bianca pinched her nipple. She couldnt help but arch her back, driving her breast into Biancas hand.

Bianca broke away from Lenas lips, leaving her gasping for air. Lena… please, she managed to say, her chest heaving. Bianca could not recall ever having such a need for anyone in her life. There was a fire racing through her veins and she knew only Lena could put it out. I want you… Bianca shook her head wanting wasnt enough, it didnt express the desire she felt. No, I dont just want you, Lena… I need you… I love you so much, please Lena, please.

Lena swallowed, her tongue running over her swollen lips, her eyes searching Biancas. Youre absolutely sure?

Bianca knew there was only one thing she could do. Only one action she could make that would give Lena the answer she needed. Reluctantly letting go of Lenas breast, hearing her moan, she took Lenas hand in hers, Heres your answer, Bianca said as she placed Lenas hand against her panties.

Oh… God, Lena groaned. She couldnt believe it.

Can you feel how youve made me?

Lena could only nod as she moved her hand slowly – Bianca was obviously aroused. She turned and looked into Biancas face.

Touch me Lena… Bianca demanded as her hand went back to Lenas breast. Please. Bianca crushed her lips against Lenas, her tongue finding its way into the warm confines of Lenas mouth.

Lenas head was swimming. It felt as Bianca were everywhere at once, her hands, her lips, her mouth, branding her, making her ache for Biancas touch.

Lena maneuvered herself on to her side, letting Bianca fall to her back. She was breathing heavily through her nose as Bianca continued to plunder her mouth.

She tastes so good. Bianca acknowledged, unable to get enough of Lena.

Lenas fingers of her right hand slid up and down the expanse of Biancas underwear, slipping her index finger underneath the material she felt the warmth and wetness of Biancas body for the first time in months. It was more than she remembered – it was almost more than she could take.

Bianca pulled back from Lenas mouth as soon as she felt her touch. Lena!! she cried out.

She stopped. Her hand frozen in position as her body cried out in protest. No! No! Not now! Too… too much? she gasped. Please dont say yes, please.

No… Bianca answered, her eyes locking onto Lenas, …not enough.

Lena was preparing to leave the softness of Biancas body, as the words filtered through her brain. Not enough. She had said not enough. A small grin appeared on Lenas face.

Not enough of … this? she asked innocently.

OH… YES! God! YES! Bianca cried out as Lenas fingers worked their magic on her. Wha… what? Whats wrong? Bianca asked abruptly, her heart thumping rapidly. Why Lena had pulled away? Why was she stopping?

Bianca… sweetheart… Although Bianca had told her – had demonstrated that she had given her permission to touch her body, Lena felt the need to ask. She wanted Bianca to have control over the situation, something that ***** Michael had stripped away from her. May I undress you?

Bianca, once her thoughts had cleared, realized what Lena was doing. She was asking for permission. Asking for something she had already given her. Yes… her words caught in her throat. You can.

Lena slowly got to her knees. She wanted Bianca to be aware of every move she made. She slid her hands up Biancas legs, feeling their smoothness until she reached the hem of the t-shirt.

Its okay, Bianca said as she nodded.

Lena raised the shirt until she came face to face with Biancas underwear. She licked her lips. Reaching out with both hands on either side of Biancas hips, she pulled on the elastic and smiled as Bianca lifted her hips as Lena slid the material down Biancas legs.

Soon, they were off and lying on the floor. Bianca got into a seated position and raised her arms. The shirt soon joined the underwear on the floor.

Lena gazed unhurriedly upon Biancas naked body. Starting with Biancas face, which was flushed with desire, down to her ***** – a bounty to behold, down her extended belly, finally to the thatch of dark hair between Biancas legs.

She wanted to etch the moment in her mind, set it in stone, so she might recall it as many times as she liked.

Bianca in the meanwhile was getting nervous – Lena was staring at her, she hadnt said a word and Bianca couldnt take the scrutiny any longer and turned away.

Bianca? Whats wrong? Please tell me. Lena was concerned.

I… Im repulsive to you.

What? How can you say that? Lena asked incredulously. Why would you think that?

You… youre just staring at me – you were doing more before you took the shirt off…

Lena bridged the gap between them. Oh my Darling. No. No, you mustnt think that…

Its just been so long… and… and… Bianca was in near tears by this time.

Bianca, you do not repulse me. You take my breath away – you can never… she bent down and kissed Biancas forehead. Ever, first one cheek, then the other. Repulse me. Lena promised as she kissed Biancas lips tenderly – slowly.

You are perfection… Lena explained as she moved down, kissing each inch of Biancas skin until she reached Biancas right breast. to me. Lena took Biancas nipple in her mouth – her tongue swirling around the nipple, taking her time to reacquaint herself with it. You are… she said as she kissed her way over to the left breast, a work of art.

Bianca had been holding back at first – she wasnt sure what Lena was going to do. She couldnt withstand the tender onslaught of emotions that bombarded her as Lena paid homage to her *****.

How can I ever find your body repulsive? Lena asked, placing kisses along the expanse of Biancas stomach, dipping her tongue in to Biancas navel.

Bianca moaned in delight – her hands tangling themselves in Lenas hair, her legs opening of their own volition.

You are carrying our child, Lena whispered as she moved lower. She could smell Biancas desire rising from her. I love you, now and always.

As soon as Bianca heard those words pass Lenas mouth, she felt Lenas tongue – her fingers exploring.

Lena… Lena… oh God… baby… Bianca panted, her head moving from side to side, her hips lifting off the bed, trying to maintain contact with Lenas mouth.

Lena lost herself in Biancas body – touching – tasting – feeling. She had no idea how she existed for so long without this woman in her life. With each swipe of her tongue Lena grabbed a hold of life, determined never to let it go. As she delved further – she sensed that Bianca would not hold out much longer. She could already feel the tremors in Biancas muscles – her hips moving faster.

Lena… ri… right there… dont stop… yes… yes… God, Bianca gasped as she felt her ***** building. She wasnt surprised that it was coming so quickly – she expected as much, Lena was an outstanding lover.

Lena continued her efforts – her fingers and tongue working in tandem. She needed this to be perfect. It had to be.

Lena!!! Bianca shouted as her hands clenched the sheets as wave after wave of pleasure crashed upon her.

Lena greedily went after every last drop of Biancas release.

Oh GOD!! Bianca cried out as she was hit by another ***** taking her completely by surprise. No… more… please, she begged.

Lena froze.

No more. I… I cant take anymore, Bianca gasped. Lena… Lena… whats, she swallowed. What is it? she managed to say as she noticed Lena at a stand still, almost as if she were afraid to move.

You said to stop… I…

Oh Lena… come here baby, Bianca requested as she reached out to her. Im sorry, Bianca said as she kissed Lena tasting herself. I… you were amazing, again. I… I just didnt think I could take anymore.

Are you sure?

Bianca kissed Lena once again, Oh yeah… Im positive, she said smiling.

Lena breathed a sigh of relief before stifling a yawn.

Are you tired? Bianca asked.

Exhausted – in a very good way, Lena replied as she grabbed the covers and brought them up, covering their bodies.

Lena?

Im fine my Angel, she said as she kissed Biancas forehead.

But… I dont understand.

Dont worry. I need you to trust me.

Of course I do.

Im deliriously happy, besides, theres always the morning, Lena explained as she settled behind Bianca. It isnt always about mutual satisfaction sweetheart. I could make love to you forever – and you are most likely wiped up…

Its wiped out and I am a little tired, she admitted, smiling.

Ah, wiped out. Thank you my darling, Lena told her. Good night Bianca, Lena said as she nuzzled her neck.

Good night Lena. Bianca was still somewhat puzzled by Lenas behavior then she glanced behind her and saw the smile on Lenas face. It was different – then it hit her. She had the same smile or one quite similar to it the night they had made love the first time. Bianca closed her eyes and drifted off before she was aware of it.