Marina-

Five years ago I had everything I wanted, in the palm of my hand, and I didnt even know it. I took advantage, I am still taking advantage. I snatched my poor sweet Jenny from the arms of her fianc and then I left her as soon as Fransesca had came back. Im a fool.
You must understand. I have never felt like this about anybody in my entire life. Jenny is somehow a mystery to me, and no matter how hard I try to leave or stay I can never really settle for one. I make things difficult I suppose because I am afraid of what being with Jenny, and not being with Jenny will be like. I know that I love her, and yet at times it gives me pleasure to think that she doesnt know that.
Perhaps it is because my role as a lover has changed so dramatically. Just over five years ago I was Jenny. I was Fransescas mystery. Fransesca however has never been mine. I was always much more infatuated with her money than I was with her as a person. Fransesca was a hunter and now I find that so am I. Jennys adoration is like foreplay to me.
I look into her eyes and see the same expression I saw years ago. I always knew that Jenny would leave Tim for me. Falling in love with her, however, was not something I had been expecting. After all those months of having the upper hand, watching her falter under my gaze, it was very frustrating to suddenly feel like Jenny now had a way to control me.
I part own The Planet with Bette, though she has remained a silent partner ever since she helped me out with the money a few years ago. I support Jenny when she cannot sell her writing, which is frequently. I like to look after her. I like to buy her nice things. I refuse to allow her to do anything but write because I will not have her working when I can take care of her.
Financial support, after all, is the least I owe her


Jenny-

Five years ago I was under Marinas spell, five years later I am still under Marinas spell. I cant tell you exactly what it is about her that has made leaving her impossible. At one time I was sure it was something as insignificant as her looks, or her body, or that accent, but then I realised with Marina shes so much more than one person. Just when you think you know every side to her she changes and impresses or devastates you with another.
From the very first second I laid eyes on her I knew that I would be hers even if she wouldnt be mine. When I found out about Fransesca it broke my heart. I had sacrificed so much for Marina and she just threw me away.
When I decided to be with Marina. I had imagined such a perfect relationship, but now I know that theres just no such thing. When I had heard Marinas voice on the answer machine, heard her tell me that she knew that she was in love with me, I had no choice but to go to her. I thought that we could make it work, I still think that we can. And I think that in Marinas own pensive way she really does love me, she just needs to work on showing it.
I think one of the biggest reasons that Ive stayed with Marina, despite how much her emotions seem to fluctuate, is the *****. Marina is a very generous lover. But its not just all about sexual gratification, after weve made love I feel like, even if its just for a moment, Marina becomes a completely different person. Thats the Marina that Im still hoping shell become one day.
Shes just such a puzzle. One minute she can be cradling me in her arms, whispering I love yous into my ear and planting butterfly kisses along my neck, and then the next she can be sat in the corner scowling at me.
But no matter what I say or do, no matter how many times I leave her, or she leaves me, I just know that Im going to belong to Marina forever.