Tina:
Bette had promised me she would not go to work this weekend. After our last fight on Monday, I didnt want to pressurize her, nag her or remind her. I felt guilt, as if I was trying to test herif she could keep her promise, but it was also about finding out, if I we were a priority to her. I am proud of her, her dedication to her work.but I miss her. She needs to understand this. She didnt last Monday. I am not angry any more, she did apologize. And God when she does that shes so adorable.I cant be angry for more than five minutes. But, I am eager. I am really hoping she keeps her word and doesnt break my heart again.

Friday was with the girls. It is always with the girls. Sometimes, I long to stay at home, with Bette.all of her to myself. But, I know after a tiring week, we both need to go out. We dont bring up the weekend. I know her too well. Bette is all about extremes. I know its either a big surprise and shes going to make me ecstatic or shes forgotten and thatll make me.sad. But, I dont want to think too much. The worse is over. Shes with me now and I do love her.

The best part is I can feel she loves me too. She makes me feel that with every look, every touch. Both she does a lot. And I love it. She pulled me for a dance with a look that said, I am all hers. She looks at me like I am made for her, like I am the only one in the whole world. We are on the dance floor, dancing toKits slow numbersBette has engulfed me. It feels like I am her second skin.shes holding me so close. Our bodies movingjust barely to the slow beat. I can smell her hair..breathe on her neck, feel the strength of her shoulders. Her touch drowns out my fears, my doubts, my tiredness. I know Ill forgive her for tomorrow if she doesnt remember but I so hope she does. I want Bette all to myself. And I am looking forward to tomorrow.
Bette:
I was such an ***** to start a week with a fight. I apologized to herand I meant it. I promised her this weekend would be different. And come what may! It will be. I just get sucked up in work and its not that I forget about herits just that.well I forget. Not that shes my lifebut that I need to balance things.

Tina hasnt brought that up, even once. But, I know her. She thinks either I have forgotten or she knows I want to surprise her. I can tell. As she started to discuss weekend plans with Aliceshe stopped in the middletrying to look away from meI can tell. She holds me tight, she doesnt let go my hand. I can tell.that shes missing me. And God I love being missed. Shes such an angel, I apologize and she forgives me. I make promises.and I forgetbut not this one. She doesnt know I took Monday off. She doesnt know how I ache for her.right now. But, she will.

I asked Kit to play some slow numbers and I took Ts hand and took her to the floor. I wanted this evening to be relaxing. Even in crowd, she was the only one.I drowned in her eyes. I whispered to her, that I love her. She tightens her hold on me, possessing me, rewarding me. Tinas touch can calm me in five seconds flat, her look can soothe my soul in the same time. When she looks at me, I know for sure I will be okay. When she holds me, I am fearless and vulnerable at the same time. Fearless to the world, vulnerable to her. I hold her close. Her head on my shoulder, her soft breadth in my skin.rocking to the song.I think this is heaven. I really do!