Alices house

Tina was feeling a little better today. To be able to sleep well feels good. Thanks Shane. Even though I was trying to help you feel better, Im the one feeling better.
Shes been planning a surprise for Shane to show her how much she loved her. She knows how painful rejection is

Oh . how I missed being loved being wanted then the tears started again. Tina couldnt help it. She cried rolling into a ball at the foot of the couch she sobbed. Will the tears never stop. Just when things were getting better she thought, my world seems to come apart again Im falling apart all the time.

Shane had just arrived. Using the spare key Alice gave her, she opened the door. She thinks Tina is having an afternoon nap after such a late night. She walk in quietly, she heard her before she saw her, before she knew where she was.

Oh *****. Shes crying again. No. No. Tina. Dont cry anymore. How long must she suffer before she finds out that Bette is still with that woman. Tina, shes not worth your tears. Please let go of Bette. She doesnt deserve you.

Shane went over and whispered to Tina. T, come here. Holding her, comforting her. She let Tina cry a little more. Then she decided shes had enough.

She sat Tina down. Face to face with her. Showing her all her love and understanding. Being really gentle.

Shane: Tina, are you okay. Ill make coffee and then well talk ok? No, No, I think well have some wine.

Shane went to get some glasses and the wine. Taking her time so that she can think. How am I going to do this I have to tell her this is not going to be easy but I have to I have to she cannot go on like this. I know shes hurting look at her.

Shane: here T, have some. It will help. (pausing)

Tina look more settle now. The tears have stopped. The wine has calm her a little.
Shane knows now it the time.

Tina, we need to talk. Can we talk?? Tina nod. I know youre still hurting. But honey, this has to stop. You cannot go on like this. You have to start living again. Yes, it hurt like ***** but its not the end of the world and youre not dead.

Tina: It is for me. I feel dead. Like my world has stopped existing and my heart hurt so much.

Shane: (moving closer to Tina. Holding her hands) youre hurting . but youre not dead. Shes not the world. You may have made her your world but shes not the world. Tina, you have got to know that.

Shane: I know Im sorry Im like this ..

Shane jump up suddenly. Startling Tina, Shes pacing around, looking really angry and pissed off.

STOP THAT! STOP saying youre sorry. You dont have to apologise for every single wrong thing that happen. Ive watched you saying sorry to Bette you say sorry when she missed her appointment with Gina, when she mess up, when shes angry, sorry when she flew back from New York when that crazy woman kept threatening ***** Why should you keep feeling sorry. What the f*** are you sorry about? Are you responsible that she f*** up every time.

Shane (sitting down again) Im sorry I shouted Tina. Im not angry with you, Im not. Im just angry that you let yourself think youre nothing. That the world revolves around her. (Reached out to hold Tinas hands) You are beautiful. You are loyal and faithful. Youre stronger than you think. Just because she treats you like ***** doesnt mean you are *****. ***** happens all the time I should know Im the king of *****. (making Tina smile) but they dont make me ***** unless I want to be one.

Looking into Tinas eyes. Ive had my fair share of ***** in my life, but I chose not to let it stink me. I pull myself up o it was hard I ***** up so many times you know me Tina but I get up again I try again. Sometimes its so hard to pull myself up but hey theres always tomorrow and you know what I know you guys loved me and will be there for me when I need you.

Tina, Im here for you I know its hard but together, the four of us, Al and Dana is with us too we can do it well be there for you and thats a promise.

Tina hugs Shane. She whispered: I know you will I know I love you too.

Shane continues: Everyone makes mistake, yes, even our Bette (damn you Bette). Dont be bound by that mistake and be trapped in it forever. I dont want you to hurt everyday and forever is a long time to hurt. You can choose to forgive her or hold on to the hurt thats not for me to say but you have to let go and live your life again. You have so much to live for.

Silent now. Both thinking. Shane took a big sip of the wine before continuing.

Please dont be upset with me with what Im going to say Shane look at Tina to see if its ok to proceed Tina nodded.

What if what if and Im not saying its true cause I dont know what if she doesnt want to be in your life anymore??? Will you sit here and feel sorry for yourself?? Will you cry forever?? Is that what you gonna do?

Tina looked stunned. Not knowing how to respond. Tears start rolling down and she sobbed again.

This time Shane let her cry and she walk away .. she opened the door. Then she heard Tina called

Tina: (pleading) Shane dont go, please. Can you stay here with me for a while.

Shane: of course .