Two weeks later.


Sasha woke up, a wave of relief and happyness coming over her when she saw the empty spot next to her on the bed. Finally someone who understands I dont want to see her face and have to talk to her in the morning she thought. She got up, wanting to take a shower.
All of a sudden, the door flung open and in came a girl who looked slightly familiar. Sasha guessed it must be her ***** from last night when the girl came up to her, smiling : I brought breakfast and she held a bag full of fresh croissants in front of her, as if it were a trophy.
How sweet of you Sasha acidly stated. She took the bag, opened the window and threw it out, looking out to see it crash five storeys down. Then she turned to the girl and calmly said : Get out. Were not a couple. In fact, theres no we at all. Youre nothing to me. So get out. The girl was so shocked she didnt move. Out of the door, out of the window, WHATEVER ! BUT OUT ! Sasha started yelling. Suddenly afraid at this outburst, the girl ran out, met by Shane who was walking up the stairs.
Shane wondered if she should walk away since Sasha seemed to be in a terrible mood, but she finally decided against it and entered Sashas loft.
Sasha looked up at her Dont tell me you brought breakfast she said, a small smile on the lips. Somehow, seeing Shane instantly calmed her down. She had gotten used to seeing her, and they had spent more than one night every week together lately. They would meet in clubs and leave together for her loft, talk on the way, then *****, talk some more and get it on again and so on, or simultaneously shane sharing her thoughts while Sasha was going down on her, until they would crash down on the bed, exhausted, with the first sunbeams of the day. In the morning, Shane would have already left when Sasha would wake up for her job at the Planet or her classes at University. It was a tacit agreement between them, along with a golden rule : never talk about it.
Why do you treat them like that ? Shane asked, trying to understand Sasha. Shane felt for the girls that were innocent enough to believe Sasha really liked them. During their conversations she had discovered a new side of Sasha which didnt match with this mean side of hers.
Im doing this for them Sasha stated, looking her straight in the eye. Anyway, as pleased and delighted as I am to see you, what are you doing here ?
I was on my way to an appointment, Im going to do Sharon Osbournes hair she proudly stated, waiting for a congratulation. But Sasha didnt bother to look up, it seemed she couldnt care less about what she said. I thought, I could drop by. Actually I was wondering if you were coming at Milk tonight.
Why, are you and the gang having one of your top secret meetings again, where you share your bad experiences and try to comfort yourself by hearing that youre not the only one in trouble ? Sasha ironically said.
Shane shoved her hands in her pockets No, actually I was going to ask you because I was going, but youre obviously not in the mood, so forget it. And she left.
Sasha didnt call her back, she just watched her walk away, scoling herself for being such a prick.
Truth was, she had to admit she like Shane, and it scared her. Shane had confided in her, told her about her youth, her problems. Sasha had started to lurn to trust somebody. When they fucked, she even let Shane take over control which was something completely new to her.
But sometimes her rough side would appear and she would be evil like she had just been, doing the one thing she actually didnt want to do : hurt Shane. But she would rather die than adlit this.


Dana sighed : Here I am, coming back to an empty house. she thought not that I miss Tonya, obviously she added, chuckling.
Lara and her had decided to take things slow. Dana could understand that Lara didnt want to have her heart broken once again and she herself needed some time to recover from her previous monumental mistake as she liked to put it. They had dated several times and spent some nights together. And what nights ! The mere thought of it made her smile broadly. But nobody in the gang knew about it.
She pushed the door open and stopped dead in her tracks. The light was on and she could hear muffled sounds coming from the kitchen. She slowly crept forward, holding her breath. The fear started to build inside of her.
There was somebody. Her hands started to shake, threatening to reveal her presence.
Dana, sweetheart, I made us dinner. Youde better hurry up or its going to get cold came the trumpetting voice. The person came forward and pecked her on the lips.
Tonya ? she managed to get out What How What are you doing here ?
Oh, I know you didnt expect me to come home this early, but Tadam ! Here I am ! Tonya said smiling. She excitedly took Danas hand and led her into the living room.
I she mysteriously said have had a busy day. And Everythings ready she triumphantly said, throwing her hands in the air and looking expectantly at Dana.
Our wedding is going to be the first ***** VIP wedding ever celebrated ! And with the present political controversy it is going to be huge ! But her ethusiasm was met by stunned silence.
What the ***** are you talking about ? There is no wedding Tonya. We broke up weeks ago ! I told you to get out of my life !. Sha grabbed Tonya who hadnt reacted yet and who still wore her smile, led her outside and slammed the door shut, careful to lock it .
Five minutes later the doorbell rang. What again ? she yelled, opening the door.
Surprise !
Tonya, what the ***** ?! I just threw you out !
But Tonya ignored her outburst of fury : I. Have. Amazing. News. Sweetheart she stated, happily looking up at he, trying to enter the house, but Dana was blocking her the way inside. Our wedding is going to be perfect ! She forcefully pushed Dana aside and got inside.
Oh, youve cooked dinner ! How sweet of you Dana heard her voice from the kitchen.
Dana was still standing at the door. At first, she had thought Tonya was making fun of her, playing a game, but now she was starting to really freak out.
What the ***** she muttered, heading back inside.


Tina watched as Bette was lying. How could this have happened ?
She watched, and watched, never getting bored of the sight of her former lover, the hours passing by.
Please she whispered at the form wake up, please !.
She had spent two weeks like that, since she had gottn the call from the hospital. She would sit there for ours, thinking of her time with Bette, of the coma she was in, the new life she was bearing in her, a promies for the future, what had been once Bette and her dream. Together. She had spent a lot of time thinking of this child. Not having it had instantly been out of the question. With Bettes accident, she had read all the books she had found about comas, how one should talk to the person, not consider her dead because that would be the beginning of the end, however slight the chances were for the person to wake up. She liked to think of Bette like a sleeping princess, The Sleeping Beauty. But who would be the prince ? Candace hadnt showed up, Tina wondered if she even knew, which reassured her : it meant that Bette hadnt gone on seeing her. Her ? She had spent countless hours there but Bette hadnt wojen up.
She sighed. There was so much she had to tell her, and now she wasnt sure if she could hear her. But it somehow made things easyer. She told the sleeping form things she knew she would have never been able to tell her. She talked about Marc, her pain when she had discovered Bettes betrayal, her sorrow, her hope that somehow they would make it trough this.
She felt outraged because it wasnt in her power to save Bette. Now she was dependent of machines that kept her living, pumped the life into her.
The whole gang came often to see if there had been some change in Bettes state. They told Tina she should go home, that what she was doing was useless but Tina was stubborn and they respected that. Kit sometimes took over, followed by her dad who had come to town as soon as he had heard.
She hadnt yet had the courage to tell her friends she was pregnant and had asked Alice to keep her mouth shut. She wasnt ashamed. She just needed to deal with it herself before they would all fall upon her with their questions. She had told Alice she had gone to the crio bank, afraid of what her reaction would have been if she had told her the truth.
She could understand why men had to create characters embodying Death and Life : they needed to talk to someone, beg, implore someone, because if they hadnt anybody to turn to, they might as well commit suicide.


Sasha stepped into Milk. She spotted Shane, Alice, Dana laughing and Jenny kissing a girl on the neck, her hand wandering under the table.
She frowned, Jenny had definitely changed these past weeks, maybe because she was staying with Shane. She had discovered the amazing world of anonymous *****, one night stands, desire and control. She didnt know which Jenny she liked best : the innocent, weak one, whining and bound to have her heart broken, or the one aware of her power of seduction, playing with girls, but bound to stay unsatisfied since she had once experienced love, tasted the forbidden fruit.
She wondered if she should join them. Joining them would mean : show Shane that she had come, that she had given in, which she didnt want to, of course. But not joining them would mean not spend the night with Shane, which she didnt want either.
She walked up to their table.
Who would have thought ? I mean, we all knew she was crazy, but, you know, not that kind of medical crazyness Alice said, laughing her head off.
Dana was pouting :Its not funny guys. It was really creepy. And now shes in psychiatry.
God, you almost got married to her Shane managed to say between fits of laughter.
Sasha sat down, greeted by warm smiles. Shane barely aknowledged her, staring at Dana, suddenly finding her face very interesting.
Sasha stared hard at her, trying to make her look at her. The others felt the tension between Shane and Sasha. Usually, they would instantly start to fool around or flirt, casting each other burning glances.
For this morning Sasha uncomfortably started. She hadnt intended it to be in front of everybody.
Dont say it Shane interrupted her, now looking her straight in the eye. Its ok.
Sasha smiled with relief. So, what are you doing tonight ? she asked her tentatively.
***** Shane said, making Alice choque because she wasnt used to Shane being so crude. She usually kept silent about it. This was more Sashas style. Sasha grinned.
But not you Shane added calmly. Her statement had the effect of a bomb going off. A dark haired and gorgeous woman came up to their table. Shane got up and kissed her for a little longer than she would have if Sasha hadnt been watching. She turned to the table : Guys, this is Carmen. Carmen, these are my friends. Were off and she waved them goodbye, leading Carmen out of the club.
Sasha stayed there, trying to hide her feelings. She downed Danas glass which was in front of her and got up, over to the dance floor, looking for her next prey for the night.