Shane leaded Tina to a wooden bench. Siting down with her, the sunrise glowing behind them. Shane let Tina cried, cry till her worries were wash with tears full of something Shane was not sure about. Tina cried till she had not more tears to share. Shane caressed her bare arm, conforting her, waiting.

It took Tina a few more extra minutes to find the words to voice her tears.

Am sorry Shane she started, looking up at her worried friend.

Its ok Tee Said Shane, nodding.

II dont know whats into meII just feel tired, I want to sleep all day long, I…I look at the babies and Tina felt the knot in her stomach tightening, her hands trembling again.

II cant force myself a smile looking at themI cant even drool about my own kidsand(Tinas sobs becoming more agitated)am the worst mother Shane! Tina finished, feeling tears back in her eyes.

Tee, is not thatis not that at allis just your body helping you whispered Shane.

What? Mumbled Tina, looking up again at her friend.

Tee, you have gone through a lot latelyis not like you dont love your kidsyou are just tired, your hormones still playing with you Shane ventured to say, unsure of what to do to comfort her friend.

Shane, is not just thatis Helen, and Tina, and Jackis everything! Tina said standing up, rising her hands, looking around, defeat.

Jack? asked Shane following Tinas pace.

Stopping, turning to look at Shane, Tina said, looking at her friend full in the eyes,

He was my brother, my twin bother..Tinas father

Tinas words hit Shane making everything so much clear.

I see finally said Shane, nodding.

Shane followed Tinas pace, listening to her never voiced thoughts. Tinas quietness was saying much more than her previous tears and Shane was listening carefully.

Seeing the empty tank from the other side, Tina finally added,

Jack studied in Paris, Helen too. They run into each other and became fast friends. He fell in love with Helen and she broke his heart. He knew, (Tina turned to look at Shane for a second) or found out, I dont knowhe knew that Helen loved meand even so they became the best of friends.many years later he offered her his sperm

Ok whispered Shane, encouraging.

He died Shane sighed Tina, getting lost in the blueness of the tank.

Shane nodded, waiting for Tina to continue.

He died before hed meet her daughterhe died before I came outhe never knew the real mehe never met Bette naming Bette, voicing her name brought tears back to Tinas eyes, caressing her memories.

Shane put her arm around Tinas waist, holding her.

I dont know sighed Tina, shaking her head.

What, what dont you know? Sweetly asked Shane.

Lifeis too complicate Tina answered, cleaning her face.

Yeah chuckled Shane, drawing a smile on Tinas face.

Tee Shane said, stopping their pace, taking Tinas hand.

Whats that worries you so much, what is it?

I dont know whispered Tina, looking at her feet.

Then you better find out Tee added Shane, walking again.


They quietly walked towards the exit. Lost in their thoughts, in their own memories.

Seth opened the gate for them, waving at them as he was on the phone. Shane opened Tinas door, helping her to jump in. As Shane was jumping inside, Tina whispered,

Im afraid to talk to Helen, to love Tina, to love Helen

Shane closed the trucks door looking at Tina. Nodding, she asked,

Are you in love with Helen?

Tina looked at Shane a few seconds before answering. She didnt need the time to think about the answer, she was sure about it, she just admire Shanes courage to ask her that, she knew it wasnt easy for Shane to ask personal questions to her friends.

Smiling, shaking her head, Tina said,

No, I am not

Turning the engine on, Shane looked to the road, saying.

There you have the answer to all your problems Tee

Nodding, Tina added, whispering,

but what if

Interrupting Tina, Shane added,

What ifs doesnt count Teelife is full of themyou cant live your life like that, you face the facts and go with your heart Tee

Tina sighed, leaning her head on the window, watching the Zoo became smaller.