The room became darker, the air even softer.

Shivering, as in slow motion, Bette felt her eyes closing, her hands trembling before Tinas lips sweetly touched hers. It was as she imagined and more. Tina rested her soft lips on Bettes for a couple of minutes while Bette very lightly, with the softest touch, placed her lost hands on Tinas bare shoulders to hold herself. Bette was letting Tina lead, following every moved she made but then, as she was getting lost in Tinas intensity, she felt Tinas trembling hands on her hips, lightly pushing her away.

III have to go Tina whispered, staring at Bette with the scariest look in her eyes.

am sorry she added, still whispering.

Nodding, as a dying sigh, as a lost plead, Bette said;

Waitthis is your house her words a tender whisper, caressing Tinas scared heart.

Right Tina nodded, feeling trapped.

Is okIIlll go Bette nodded, sadly smiling.

Before being able to move, Bette took a few more seconds to look at Tina, and then, sweetly taking her hand, she added,



She opened her mouth but nothing came out. Looking at Tina she forgot what she was going to say. The thoughts she wanted to voice were too audacious, too scary, too bold. Watching Tina looking at her, all Bette managed to do was nodding, slowly, as if trying to stop the time, begging for a few extra seconds in the darkroom, under the soft light, noticing the single lost tear that was lazily falling down Tinas cheek. Unable to stop the urge Bette raised her free hand and carefully, with the softest touch, erased Tinas tear before finally turning around to walk out of the room.

***

Defeat, as if carrying the worlds biggest problems on her back, still feeling Tinas lips on hers, the sweetest touch, her trembling shoulders and her scared look, Bette entered the Planet, needing to be with people, needing an escape, something to fill her shattered heart. Seeing Alice at their usual table she walked towards her, her feet carrying her wounded pride. But, sitting down, she realized that it really wasnt her pride what was hurt, it was her hope. Full of doubts, feeling lost for the first time in her life, she looked up, finding Alice looking at her, frowning.

Wow…are you ok? Alice asked, worried, noticing the look on Bettes face.

Yeah mumbled Bette

Yeah, I can tell Nodded Alice, closing the magazine.

Tell mewhat is it? Asked Alice again, leaning forward.

Is nothing, I dont want to talk about it, ok Said Bette, her words harsher that she intended. Looking at her friend all Bette could see was Tinas sweet face, her confused look, how she bit her lip after breaking the kiss, how her eyes were saying a story that her body was betraying.

Ok agreed the blonde, leaning backwards on the chair.

Waving at the waitress Bette ordered a coffee.

So you are in lovebig deal nonchalantly whispered Alice, opening the magazine again.

What? asked Bette, her head turning like in the Exorcist.

Yeahyou are in loveI can tell added Alice, pretending to read the magazine.

Looking at her friend, Bette thought many excuses, lots of lies but then, feeling tired, facing reality, she just sighed.

How you know? She asked, letting her back rest on the chair.

How do I know?…PorterI know you answered Alice, closing the magazine again. Leaning forward, facing her friend.

I can see it she added, smiling briefly.

Is that obvious? asked Bette, feeling a knot in her stomach.

Not at all But I know youIve seen it said Alice, shaking her head.

Seen what? Asked Bette again.

The look in your eyes, the way you walkyour trembling hands

You have seen it before? Asked Bette again, feeling dizzy.

Noneverever (noticing the confuse look in Bettes face)thats the point added Alice, placing her hand on Bettes.

God!…what am going to do? cried Bette a couple of minutes later, hiding her face in her hands.

You asking me? Asked an astonished Alice.

Alices tone surprised Bette who appearing from behind her hands, added shyly smiling.

No (shaking her head), not really . The smile fading as Tinas image was again all she could see in front of her

She is straight She whispered, turning her head to the street.

You sure? Asked Alice, her eyebrow touching the ceiling.

Nodding quietly, not wanting to look at her friend, Bette got the coffee mug the waitress was handing her.

Does she flirts? Asked Alice, trying another tactic.

No answered Bette, shaking her head.

Finger nails? Are they polish or not?… are they long or short? Alice continued, making Bette to look at her.

I know the deal Alis not like thatshe is not a car youd label Bette sighed with fire in her eyes.

Ok, ok Alice added, taking her cup, sipping coffee.

Butdoes she touches you when she talks with you? continued Alice, unable to stop her quest.

No Bette whispered, looking down at her lap, cleaning invisible stains on her jeans.

But she kissed me she added, the words barely a whisper, daunting.

She, What? yelled Alice, making some heads turned towards them.

Reading Bettes silence, the confusion in her face, her defeat shoulders, Alice smiled, nodding.

Straight, there is no doubt

What? Asked Bette, even more confused.

Yoda was right Alice stated.

What? Asked Bette again, feeling stupid.

Shaneshe knew itsaid Tina doesnt know she is *****

What? again asked Bette, looking around, feeling retarded by her lack of words.

Porter, some girls are straight, some are *****.others are confused, many are just bitchesand a bit more are lesbians trapped in the ignorance of a straight body

Opening her mouth Bette knew the word that was going to come out, so closing it, she just stared at Alice, waiting for her to explain.

Show her Alice said, daring.

What? asked Bette again, unable to stop the lame word escaping her lips.

Show her she is a ***** or let Shane do it Alice nonchalantly finished, hoping for Bettes reaction.

As hoped, Bette looked up at Alice with fire in her eyes, tightening her jaw.

Kidding Porter, am kidding what I mean is give her some timeif she is what I think she isyou will have to work on this

What do you think she is? Asked Bette, leaning on the table closer to Alice.

The one? Alice asked, mischievously whispering winking at Bette.

Shyly shrugging, feeling a smile growing on her face, Bette leaned backwards, noticing the sunrays entering through the window.