They stayed that way for what seemed like forever. Both their faces were wet from sorry tears; sorry for everything that has caused their marriage to shatter. Tina now has both her hands around Bettes body, she held on her tight. Bette also has her hands around Tinas waist not wanting to let go. She was worried that she might have done something terribly wrong by doing so but when she felt Tinas hands on her, she knew she had done the right thing. Both felt the hug was enough for now, no conversations, confessions and confrontations were needed. Both felt safe in each others arms cos thats where home is for both Tina and Bette.

Bette had her eyes shut the whole time. She was afraid Tina would be gone, slipped through her fingers when she opened them. Her lips moving to say I love yous into Tinas ears over and over again. And with each I love you she felt Tinas body relax in her arms.

Bette? Tina lifted her head from Bettes shoulder and released herself from her hold. Bettes heart was racing, she wasnt sure what Tina was about to say next but she knew it must be something that would tear her heart apart again.

Yes, T? They were now looking at each others eyes searching for the love that was apparent.

Im sorry for before she could finish her sentence, Bette cut her off.

No T. Dont say that. You dont have anything to apologise for. Its all me ok? I did this to us, not you, ok? Tina shook her head not agreeing with what she just heard.

Bette please, just let me finish. Please could you just listen to me for once? Please?

Bete looked at her unsure. For once? Did she actually say that? So all this time I havent been listening to her? She thinks I havent been listening to her? Oh my god, Ive really been a ***** up all this time to her.

Bette, Bete?!? Bette stared at her and finally saw what was in front of her. She could feel Tinas eyes burning right through her.

I umm, yes. Im sorry. But can we just go inside and talk? Its getting real dark here Bette forced a smile.

Tina nodded and Bette led the way inside. Once inside, Tina sat at one end of one couch while Bette sat on another. Bette wiped her tears with the back of her hands.

T, do you want anything to drink? Bette said, her voice breaking even through her attempt to sound casual.

No Im fine thanks. Tina was staring at her hands.

Ok well, Im all ears T her chest constricted ready to receive a painful confrontation.

Bette, I just want to say that Im sorry. I might have done stuff that has pushed you to doing whatever you have. It couldve been my fault too that our marriage fell apart. I havent given you the time and the love you needed after I, we lost the baby. I thought I was the only one grieving over him, when I shouldve known you were too. But you shouldve grieved with me Bette. We couldve saved our marriage You and me, weve always been one. Where did we go wrong this time? I, I mean, we thought the baby couldve made things better for us. But clearly the problems have started way before we even wanted to have a baby

Bette could only hear one thing from Tinas lips; we couldve saved our marriage. Our marriage cant be saved now? Her head suddenly felt dizzy, the room started to spin. Bette tried to listen to what Tina was saying but she couldnt concentrate. She dropped her head in the palms of her hands and breathed deeply trying to calm herself.

doesnt justify you cheating on me! I guess, what Im trying to say is Tine looked at Bete and understood that she felt dejected.

Bette? Bette? Tina moved closer to her.

Bette, I know this is heartbreaking for you, it undoubtedly is for me too. But you must have expected this to happen. You cant just expect me run right back to you after what youve done. Tina sighed. She knew it was hard for Bette to realise that she wont have her in her life for some time, but theres nothing Tina could do. She loves Bette more than anything but she couldnt risk losing everything again just to be with her. She doesnt want to be the one to make her see how wrong things are. This time, Bette should come to realise on her own and to figure things out herself how to get not only her wife, but their old life back.