“Alright Tina…that is it…I am putting my foot down now…you are not going

back around him…I don’t give a ***** what the reason….”
“Bette…I can’t do that to him…he has noone…”
“And if you go back around him….u will have no-one……except him….I swear

Tina…you will move out…and you will never see me again…I swear..”
“Bette, how can you make me choose like that?”
“Oh My god, Tina…you are asking me how I can make u choose…well, this is

how..first of all, you fucked him…okay….you didn’t just lay in the bed with

him and sleep….you fucked him…and second, you didn’t use protection……how

the ***** could you sleep with a man…much less not use anything…and all of this

, I had no say-so in…I couldn’t do anything about it…so that gives me the

right to make you choose…”
“I…”
“I nothing…goddammit…u could have HIV Tina…doesn’t that mean anything to

you? People die from that ***** you know?”
“Bette, I do not have HIV…”
“How do you know Tina… you haven’t gotten tested…”
“I don’t need to get tested…”
“The ***** you don’t..”
“There is no sense in getting tested now anyway….it is too soon…”
“No…Tina…you can be tested as early as 3 weeks..if you have the HIV virus, the

antibodies will be in your blood…and it’s been over 3 weeks…so, I think you

should get tested…you have an appointment coming up anyway…”
“Bette, I said I don’t need to be tested….”
“Goddamit T…yes you do….I’m not going to walk around forever wondering whether

my wife is infected with the HIV virus or not…besides, you wouldn’t have woken

me up, if you weren’t worried about it yourself…”
Tina turned around to face Bette…”The truth is……….” she started to

say…”I am ***** terrified…I am scared to death…I don’t want to be PG by

him and I certainly don’t want HIV….the ***** was nothing to me…I don’t even

understand why I did it…I have, well… had you…the most wonderful thing that

has ever happened to me…I mean, we had our problems, but nothing that couldn’t

be talked about…provided that you ever talked…”
“Provided that I ever talked?”
“Yes Bette….you never talked to me anymore…all we were was roomates….you

never held me at night anymore, never called me during the day…*****, you didn’t

even stick around much after we lost the baby…all I could think, was that you

had found someone else to spend your time with…someone whom could carry a baby

full term for you…a person to give you what I couldn’t…” Tina sobbed..
“Oh my god..” cried Bette…”No..T..there was never anyone else…there was always

you….just you…I couldn’t deal with losing the baby…I guess I didn’t know

to….I had always been the strong one in the relationship, and at that point….I

felt like I had to keep being strong….not only for you but for myself…I never

allowed myself to grieve….so therefore, I completely closed down to everything

except my career at the CAC…That I am sorry for…but you didn’t have to cheat

on me….that’s when I felt like I lost all control….is when I found that

out…..”
“Bette, I love you with all of my heart, and I wish that I could take all of this

back, but I can’t….I can’t take any of it back..not only did I cheat..but I

subjected myself to being pregnant…and to HIV……Bette, what have I done? I’ve

lost you and I have nothing left to live for…”she sobbed…
“aahh, Tina…” said Bette as she went to her and pulled her into her

arms….”Please don’t say that……”

tbc