I slept alone in my bed last night. I wish I had someone there with me to share my bed with. That was the first and only time Ive cancelled with someone because of another woman. Alexis, thats her name. She probably was freaked out to see me like that. Not many people have seen me that way. In fact no one has! Ive always been able to stand up to whatever comes my way but obviously not last night. Last night was, it was, as if I wasnt there in my body. It was as if I was looking from above. Only when Tina left did I feel myself returned to my own body.

After I bumped into Tina I totally forgot where I was. I couldnt move, I couldnt speak, I could barely think. I watched her every move forgetting Alexis was still there. As she left for her car, I wondered what she was doing at my gallery. She said something about wanting to talk to me but what could she possibly want to talk to me about? She made it clear to me the other time that she didnt want me. She wasnt *****. She didnt feel the same way. She even cut me off mid sentence while pouring my heart out!

I sat at my office thinking how the ***** I get here, again for the second time in less than a month! I couldnt do my work, couldnt concentrate and I even forgot to get my morning shot of caffeine from Starbucks. I have to do something. Tina must want to tell me something important.

I pressed the button on my intercom.

Bette: Jason, can you come here for a minute please?

Jason: Ok Miss Porter.

In two seconds flat, Jason was standing at my doorway.

Bette: I need a phone number to a Miss Tina Kennard. She works at the Alphaville Studios. See if you can find both her work phone and her cell? Its imperative that I get her number as soon as possible. Thanks Jason. And please please please call me Bette!

Jason: Ok sorry Bette. Ill get right to it then.

Hmm as soon as I get her number I will call her right away. Theres not a minute to lose. I need to know what she wanted to talk to me about that was so important she had to come to the gallery late at night. If I couldnt make Tina mine, then at least let me be her friend and be able to help her if that was what she needed; help.

Jason: Hey Bette.

I looked up to see Jason at my door.

Bette: Oh hey. Did u get her numbers?

Jason: You will be so proud of me. I got both her numbers and her home number and even her address. Here Ive jotted them down for you.

Bette: Thanks so much Jason.

Jason left with a huge grin on his face. I looked at his notepad.

Miss Tina Kennard
Development Executive
Alphaville Studios.

Hmm A development executive, who wouldve thought. Phone numbers, address? She doesnt live so far away from here. I looked at her numbers. Should I call? And what should I say?

Before I knew it, I was already dialling her cell. I was so nervous, just as nervous as I was when I saw her.

Tina: Hello?

Hmm, that doesnt sound like her. She sounded like she just woke up.

Tina: Hello?

Bette: Oh hmm Hi. Its Bette here. Bette Porter? I hope you didnt mind me calling you on your

Tina: No, no its ok. And Im really sorry about last night. I didnt mean to ruin your evening like that. I was just in the neighbourhood and I wondered if you were around working late and Im sorry. Im babbling here. Um What was it you wanted to say?

Umm, yeah what was it that I wanted to say? The moment I heard her voice my mind just went blank. All I have in mind was Tina. How I wished she was here with me then.

Tina: Umm Hello? Bette are you there?

Bette: Oh yeah I am here, still. I was just listening to what you were saying.

God I felt so stupid.

Bette: And I just called to ask you what you wanted to talk to me about when you came over last night. And please, no, you didnt spoil my evening. (You made my evening better in fact much much better)

Tina: Oh I just you know, I thought you were in and maybe if you were you know, we could talk? But then you had your date with you and I just didnt want to spoil it.

Bette: Really Tina, its ok. Alexis and I

Tina: Oh yeah Alexis. I hope shes as forgiving

Bette: Dont worry really. So um are you busy lunchtime? Maybe we could talk over lunch since you obviously didnt get to last night. Im just so sorry for how I reacted last night. I just, I mean you were, umm (god what am I suppose to tell her? That she was mesmerizing? That I couldn’t help it? That she took my breath away? I just couldn’t say that!) well how about that lunch?

Tina: Sure. Where should I meet you?

Bette: Well, why dont you come over to the gallery and well go from there?

Tina: Ok Bette. Will see you later.

Tina hung up. I was so excited. I still had my receiver pressed firmly to my ear. So where should I take her? I looked at my watch; two more hours till lunchtime. I can hardly wait. So many thoughts running in my head right now. I was excited and nervous at the same time to see Tina again. And properly having a sit down meal with her; just she and I.

I pressed the intercom and told Jason to hold all my calls and move all my meetings for today. Today was going to be one ***** of a day for me.