I handed Bette her wine and smiled. Bette looked scared. What is going on? Is she ok?

Tina: You feel ok? You look kinda lost!

She opened her mouth to say something but closed and thought the better of it. I wonder what is going inside her head. God even in her confusion she looked beautiful.

Bette: Tee

Tina: Yeah?

I smiled, encouraging her to continue

Bette: You look really lovely tonight.

Im sure that wasnt what she wanted to tell me. Something must be wrong. But maybe tonight isnt the right time to talk about this. Bette looked tired.

Tina: Why thank you Bette, youve more than complemented me tonight.

Bette: Tee

Tina: Yeah Bette?

Bette: Its late Maybe I should be going

I looked at her rather disappointed of hearing those words, and I wondered if she wanted to stay but was afraid to ask. Yeah I should ask her to stay then. But what if she expected something more than what I could give her? Im not in any state ready to embark on a sexual relationship with her. I dont even know how! So I just smiled. She walked up to me and closed the distance between us.

Bette: Youll be ok here tonight?

I was about to laugh. Not that I find it funny, but the situation is that we dont know how to end the night. Would she ask if she could stay? Or should I be the one to ask?

Tina: Yeah

Bette: You sure?

Tina: Yeah

Ive been staying here on my own since I moved to LA! Of course Id be ok.

Bette: Okay

As we said our goodnights I cleared the living room of wine glass and placed the wine back .This was a ***** of a day for me. Should I have gone and asked her to stay the night? Cos as she left I already felt something was a miss. But it was too late to run for the door, I could see from the window that she had already driven off, in a rush I might say. I sighed.

I reflected on the day that went by. It was a very long day for me. So much has happened. First it was meeting Bettes friends at the restaurant we spontaneously chose; Alice, whom Ive met at the dinner, then theres Dana, the tennis amateur player and then theres Shane, whos just too cool for words. They all invited me to Milk, its grand opening. Milk is well Milk is a ***** club. Ive never really been to a ***** scene before let alone a ***** club. I was so nervous I didnt really know what to expect. But Bette was there to carry me through it. And Bettes friends made me feel at ease.

It was funny to be the centre of attention. I could feel eyes burning on my skin as we entered the club. Bette held my hand as we walked pass through the hungry crowd. I was THE fresh meat and on top of that I was there with Bette! And apparently Bette is a very much sought after woman. Being there with Bette didnt stop other women to make a pass at me. Even Marina, who apparently is friends with Bette, stopped to say hi.

What surprised me most of the ***** scene was how well people knew one another, and how rumors spread like wild fires! A few women told me how much reputation Bette has. How she dates women and leave them as she likes. I know this was a risk to take but I didnt believe any of those. Sure it made me think of how Bette will act now that were dating. But I was more crossed and confused as I left the washroom.

After I left Gabby in the washroom and being hit by another woman named Jackie who told me I had made the wrong choice, I saw Bette being kissed by Melanie, her ex. My god, talk about getting jealous! I ran straight back to the washroom and hid myself behind one of the stalls. I didnt even know what I was hiding from, Bette? No. I wanted to run TO Bette not away from her. But I was so jealous, especially after hearing all the nasty things people have been telling me. But I know I shouldve done otherwise. Because Bette ran into the bathroom worried about me. She told me things Ive never heard anyone say. The things she said to me, those sweet words, it just blew me away. It was sweet, I wanted to kiss her right then and there but I wasnt really sure if I was ready for any public display.

I jumped as I heard the phone rang. Hmm Bettes only left a few minutes ago; she couldnt have arrived at her apartment, could she? I picked up the phone.

Bette: Im home!

Tina: That was quick Bette!

Bette: What can I say? Im just very eager to call you.

I blushed at her directness. When Bette told me she was going home I actually wanted her to stay. But I didnt really know whats going to happen if she did. What can we do besides kiss? And what can we do besides hold each other to sleep? I know Bette has this reputation but I just didnt want to take it to the test. Maybe I should let her wait. Besides, I dont think Im ready for a sexual relationship just yet. Heck, Ive only been a proper ***** for a day!

Bette: So did you enjoy your night out babe?

Tina: Yeah, actually I did.

Bette: How did everyone treat you?

Tina: Everyone was nice (With the exception of some others who hit on me and had been trying to pull me away from Bette)

Bette: You sure you had a good time?

Tina: Bette!!!

Bette: What?

Tina: Its great, everything was great. And your friends were nice. Is there something going on with Dana and Alice?

Bette: What? Those two?!?! Where did you get THAT crazy idea?!?

Tina: Well, just a hunch

Bette: Haha, theyre just friends, best friends actually. Hunches can be wrong dont depend on them too much!

Tina: Oh right. What about Shane? I thought you said she gets the women all the time? I didnt see her with anyone tonight

God Shane is just too cool but what is with the stares?!?! Doesnt she like me or something? Or is she just jealous that Im with Bette? Or does she have the hots for Bette? I brushed the thoughts aside. It cant be. Theyre friends. Hunches cant be trusted

Bette: Oh yeah, funny I didnt pick up on that tonight. Well, usually she gets the most gorgeous woman, but you know what? I think she didnt have anyone by her side cos the most gorgeous woman was by my side the whole time

Well, well if it isnt the REAL Bette Porter! I could feel my face burning

Tina: Bette!??!

Bette: What? Im serious; you really were the most beautiful woman there tonight. Dont tell me you didnt notice eyes on you?

Tina: Well, we both know I just needed your eyes on me tonight

Bette: They were the whole time Tee, the whole time!

I smiled. Bette has a way to make you feel special. I yawned a little too loud and I quickly covered my mouth with my free handShit!

Bette: Ok ok I get the hint! You better get some rest Tee.

Tina: Im sorry Bette. Im just tired I guessSo will I see you tomorrow?

Bette: You sure you havent had enough of me?

Tina: If I could Id have you with me the whole time, I dont think Ill ever get enough of you

If you do, then why didnt you ask her to stay? Idiot! You let her go home and she rushed just so she could hear your voice? Damn Tina you really shouldve asked her to stay. I imagined her right next to me in my bed. My mind ventured into us having ***** Just making love… I would love to make love to her Oh Kennard, snap out of it. That day will come!

Bette: Me too Tee, me too. Night Tee, sweet dreams

Tina: Night Bette, take care

I hung up with a huge smile on my face. Tina Porter, or Tina Kennard Porter, or Bette Kennard or Bette Porter Kennard. What am I doing?!?! Bette, what you do to me.!