Now granted I wasn’t always there for Tina, but I never could have imagined my sweet T to do anything so out of character. I was working hard so I could finally take a few weeks off and get away from everything with Tina. She had started working again which was fine because it helped keep her mind off of the miscarriage. But she seemed to be working more and more, I never knew when she was going to be home. Tina was never one to get short with me, but ever time I called to ask if she was going to be home, her reply was she didn’t know.

Looking back I should have been able to put the pieces together. Maybe I was pushing her into Helena’s arms, maybe she wanted to be with someone else. Tina always said that I would be her first, last, forever. I always loved knowing that Tina would never want anyone else, but deep down I was insecure. Was I enough for Tina, would Tina realize what she was missing and leave me for someone else. Those thoughts were always on my mind, but I had pushed them to the back. Now thinking how could I have been so stupid to really think that Tina wouldn’t want to know what it was like with another woman.

When I found Tina and Helena in the bed that we had shared for 8 years, I felt my worst nightmares coming true. Once everyone knew of the affair, all I could feel was shame thinking that I was never going to enough for Tina. I was amazed that eveyone rushed to Tina’s side thinking that I had cheated. Worse yet, Tina acted as if I had cheated. It wasn’t until after Tina had decided to run that people started to really find out the truth. Everyone was so sorry that they thought that I had cheated. No one could have imagined Tina doing such a thing. It just hurt that my friends thought that I was capable of doing something like that. Just shows you how little my friends really knew about me.


Tbc- the kids find out about the affair at AJ’s wedding.