Carmen sits under the stereo in Shane’s and Jenny’s living room, face buried in her folded arms. She couldn’t really hear what Steve Tyler was trying to say in his song, but the loud music should do her some good.

“Gawd…”

Carmen lifted up her face, a trail of tears streaming from her eyes. She looked around the house. Shane and Jenny were nowhere to be found. What am I doing here. Carmen thought. All she knew was that she needed to think this through. She rose unsteadily to her feet and wandered around the house aimlessly, walking right into Shane’s room without knowing it. She throws herself down onto Shane’s bed and started to sob all over again.

“What the ***** am i doing.”

Murmuring under her breath, she thought about Shane. Yes, she definitely felt alot for Shane. But what exactly was it? Affection? Lust? LOVE? Well, she knew there was definitely alot of lust involved, with Shane’s expert lips and hands all over her body. Shaking off her wandering images, she struggles to recapture her train of thoughts. Nooo, not love. How could it be love, she didn’t like ‘*****-up unavailable people.’ But like what Jenny said, you cannot choose who you love. She drew her feet up to her chest in an attempt to reassure herself. But is it really love? Knowing she wouldn’t get her answers here, she rose once again and staggered uncertainly out of Shane’s room. Just out of the door, she saw Jenny’s room and proceed into it.

In this cute pink room, she smiled to herself as she settled into a chair beside the bed. Jenny really loves pink. The big dressing mirror staring at her, Carmen laughed as she saw how ridiculous she looked with tears smudging all her makeup. Yes, Jenny makes her smile. She is comfortable with Jenny. Jenny, with her sometimes ridiculous theories and far out little antics, is really cute.

Was I serious when i said i want to make it work with Jenny? Carmen can’t help but ask herself. Her expression turning serious and on the verge of tears again. Yes… definitely yes.

“I love being with Jenny…” Carmen exclaimed out loud.

But… do I love her? Carmen threw her head down and buried them into her hands. The confusion was really giving her a massive headache.

“***** Mark and his stupid spy cams!” Carmen shouted. She wouldn’t have to face up to any of these if that smart arse did not make a tape of ‘Shane/Carmen Love confession’. Cringing her fist, she poundered the arm of the chair as she let out an “IDIOT!”. But… I really need to get these feelings figured out. Carmen pushes out of the chair abruptedly and swayed from her headache.

She made her way back to the couch in the living room and stood behind it. Remembering clearly how she and Jenny made out there and then with some 80′s movie playing. She turned her head away.

Jenny, Shane, Shane, Jenny. It was definitely alot of sexual tension with Shane, but there was so much more to talk about with Jenny. *****, Shane wasn’t even interested in talking to me. Carmen dipped her head with disgust. Two years down the road, who would I picture myself with? Shane? Jenny?

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Jenny opened the front door and walked into the living room.

“Oh *****. You startled me, Carmen”

Carmen is sitting on the couch smiling up at her.

“Hi. I have something to tell you…” Carmen rolled the words out slowly.