Carmen grabbed Shane before she could get to the door.
“Dammit Shane. You are not leaving yet.” This was far from over. Carmen was not letting go of her again. She turned Shane so they were facing each other, not caring if she pissed her off or not. “Listen to me okay? I know your not perfect. I love that about you. Every little thing you consider a flaw is wonderful to me. But did you think that maybe I’m not perfect either? I do ***** up from time to time to. You have hurt me too and before you say anything I know it wasnt on purpose. And yes I pushed. I wanna know you Shane. So I know what to do and what not to do. Walking away was stupid and I have no good explaination for it okay? I love you. And I’m scared that I might not be who you need me to be.”

For a second time that night Shane crumbled, tears flowing freely. What had she done. She never thought that Carmen could be so unsure of herself. She was just a big ***** *****. Her knees gave out and she fell to the floor, sobbing like a child. The sight of it tore Carmen to shreads. “***** why am I like this” Shane whispered. “I’m so tired, just so tired…” She closed her eyes and leaned her head against the door. Carmen sat beside her and took her in her arms.

“Shhh baby its okay. I’m not going to walk away again.

Tell me what to do for you.” She rocked Shane and kissed the top of her head, tears falling down her own cheeks. “Let me take you home okay? I mean I dont mind sitting here with you on the bathroom floor, but right now if anyone tried to come in im afraid youd get hit.” Shane quieted a little, then looked up at Carmen.

“I don’t deserve you. Why are you here?”
“Because I love you, I cherish you and I just…” She brushed the hair out of Shanes eyes. “I don’t have any other words to describe this feeling for you. ***** I just might have gotten pissed and broke the mirror myself for letting you slip away tonight.” Shane chuckled. “Come on baby lets get you cleaned up, then I’m taking you home.”