After the hug, after the sorry, I still felt terrible. I never meant to hurt her. It just been happening so much, that I dont even think twice about it anymore. The hurtful words, the yelling, and then the tears all seemed to kept repeating themselves. Puberty can be a ***** sometimes, but I never expected it be a ***** all the time. And I was scared. What if its something else?, I thought countless times. Could it be something else? I wish for it to be something else. All my friends didnt seem to be going through the same drama I was, so what was up?

And as I sat alone, in the darkness of my room that night, the stories I had about my father resurfaced. His difficulties, his terror filled mood swings. I had never thought of him before but then he would leave me alone. Was I being my fathers child?

*****

Even though Evan apologized for her behavior, the situation wasnt resolved at all. She had hurt my feelings and in a way disrespected me. I never thought she would say what she said to me. I thought we had a good relationship, a great relationship. A better one then what she had with Bette. I didnt recall being a teenager was this unsettling.

*****

Leave me alone!
Evan, you will not walk away from me when Im talking to you.

I could hear them yelling as I pulled the car into the driveway.
What is it now?, I thought climbing out of the drivers side.

I didnt want to deal with this now. Not when my head was already pounding from the trouble at work. But where else was I to go? And I had to come home eventually.

I opened the front door just in time to see Evan standing toe to toe with Tina initiating a screaming match.

Why cant you leave me alone! I just want to be left alone!
You will never be left alone in this house, sweetheart. Never!
Say what you have to say to me and then me ***** alone!, Evan screamed.

What!

Dont think that you can come home with that grade and expect to be left alone, Tina replied holding up a test paper.