I must have fallen to sleep sometime close to the morning, cause Tina came in to my room and woke me up at 9. She sat down on the side of my bed and stroke my head. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at her. She smiled at me, but I couldnt bring myself to smile back. Good morning sweetie. She said to me softly. I grunted back at her and turned around in my bed. I didnt want to wake up to this nightmare just yet. Tina laid her hand on my shoulder to get me to turn back to her. She sighed a little before speaking again. Honey, theres something Bette and I needs to talk to you about. So this was it, they were shipping me off to boarding school. My heart dropped and I got tears in my eyes. Mom, I dont want to go to boarding school. I pleaded. Tina looked seriously at me. Did you really think we would send you off to a boarding school? I looked into her eyes, I mean really looked, and I could se the love she had for me reflected in there. I smiled at her and put my arms around her waist. I love you mom. Tina leaned down and kissed my head. But we have a lot of talking to do. She said as I pulled back. And were gonna do it now. She said and rose from my bed. I watched her as she left the room and I laid in my bed, just for one more moment, before getting out of my room and getting into the living room. Bette was sitting in the couch watching the morning news. As soon as I got into the room she shut the TV off and told me to sit beside her. I did what she said and just seconds later Tina sat down on my other side. Um, honey, we want you to tell us whats going on in your life. Were worried about you, youve completely shut us out for the last year. Tina said. I looked at the floor before answering. Im sorry. We dont want an apology, we want to know whats up with you. Bette told me. And you can start by telling us the reason to why you shut us out in the first place. I looked at the both of them before I started speaking. I didnt really want to, but I realized that if I didnt they would probably ship me off to boarding school or take me to a shrink or something. And honestly, I didnt know which one of those options were the worst. Okay. I met this girl a little over a year ago. I cracked my fingers nervously. Shes great, and I really love her. I stared at the carpet. But shes in the cool gang, or actually, shes the leader of the cool gang. And therefore she cant be with me. I wanted to tell you guys, but at the time you were really fighting and I didnt want to be a burden, I didnt wanna be the one thing that got you to get a divorce. Tina put her arm around my shoulders. Honey, you dont have to worry about that, I love Bette more and more for every day. Yea, but it didnt seem like that at the time. I lifted my head a little. So anyway. I met this girl, Emma, and we got into a relationship. And the longer I waited the harder it became to tell you guys, cause I knew youd get really disappointed in me. And then there was this day when you were on a business trip to New York. I said to Bette. and you were busy down at the youth center. I turned to Tina. And, um, we ended up having *****. I felt my face get red. And after that I couldnt tell you. Both because I know you wouldnt like her, and for the fact that I promised to talk to you guys before I had *****. I refused to look at either one of them, but as Bette stroke my back it all fell apart. I love you both, and I dont know why everythings gotten so messed up. Im sorry. Bette embraced me and kissed the top of my head. Its okay baby, its okay. Were not mad at you. Tina embraced the two of us as we sat there and I felt safe in my mommies arms. Then Tina spoke. So, weve gonna have to have a talk about *****. Oh, do we have to? I asked, already knowing the answer. Yea, we do. Tina smiled at me. Im not mad at you for not talking to me before you rushed off and had *****, but we need to talk about responsibility. What do you mean? Its not like I have to be afraid that Ill be knocked up. Bette sighed. But the girl could have a disease. I cant believe Im telling you this, but I know she didnt have a disease, cause it was her first time too. I blushed more than I ever had before. Cause she said so? Bette wondered. Yes, cause she said so. What? You dont think I should believe her? Baby, were just worried about you. Tina stroke my back. Yea, well, dont be. Tina ignored my comment and started to speak again. So, does this mean that youre a *****, or are you into boys too? Mom! Well, we have to know. Tina responded. Well, I havent quite figured that out yet. They both smiled at me. Honey, weve got something we have to tell you. Tina looked nervously at Bette. What is it? I asked, looking curiously at the both of them. Weve got some great news. Tina smiled at me. Youre going to be a big sister. I stared at the both of them in shock. I didnt know what to say so I just rose from the couch and walked back and forth in the living room. Baby, calm down. Tina said to me. Calm down? Calm down?! I almost yelled. Yea, we wanna know how you feel about this. Bette smiled at me. How I feel? Ill tell you how I feel! I feel betrayed and I feel left out and I cant believe youve gotten an insemination without even asking me what I want or what I think about it first! Baby, we didnt tell you, cause we wanted it to be a surprise. Tina looked worried. I stopped pacing for a while. Whos pregnant? Bette smiled at me. I am. Did you use the same donor? was my next question. Um, no, actually, we didnt. Bette told me. Then thats not my sibling. I looked at the both of them sitting in the couch. What are you saying? I could tell that Tina was disappointed with me. Im saying that since we dont have the same mom, and not the same dad, were not related. Hey now, Bettes your mom too! Tina rose her voice. Suddenly I felt ashamed about my reaction. Of course Bette was my mom, she had always been. And I really loved her. I looked at her and I could tell that she was hurt. So I got back into the couch and snuggled up next to her. She put her arm around my neck and sighed. I love you mommy. I whispered in her ear. I love you too Kathy. I sat up again. So, exactly how pregnant are you? I asked, and poked her belly gently. She laughed at me before she answered. 3 months. I just gasped. How long have you known about this? About a month. She answered me. How could you keep this a secret? Well, it brings bad luck to tell someone before the third month. Tina hugged me from behind. I dont think that includes the big sister. I said laughing. Are you okay with this? Tina asked me, suddenly serious. I thought about it for a while. Yea, actually, I am. I said, smiling. TBC ************* You didn’t really think I was gonna ship her off to boarding school, did you? ;)