Tina paid with her credit card, thanked the man, and left to find her room. The Capri was an ok motel but it would do for now. She only had a duffle bag filled with clothes and the outfit she had on. The cashier was giving her a ***** look and after Tina settled in Room B4 she looked in the mirror and saw why. There were bruises on her wrists where Bette held them so goddamn tightly. Quickly pulling her sleeves over them Tina sat on the toilet bowl and held her dizzy head. Being a rational person Tina organized her jumbling mind so she could at least think properly.
.now what the ***** just happened…I slapped Bettethat is what I rememberand the horror that followed.
Tina turned on the faucet and splashed her face with cold cold water. She could not look at herself; suddenly feeling shameful Tina left the bathroom quickly and lay on the bed.trying to numb her thoughts. Inevitably however her thoughts thawed into painful images of the last few hours.
I saw herwith that womanI left to go homeBette saw me there and she knew she ***** knew
Tina groaned and turned over; it was so hard to even think of Bette. Theyve been through so much, shared and lost so much.
For a very long time a couple years back Tina thought she knew Bette inside out. The way Bette would close her eyes while making love until the height of climax when she would look deep in Tinas eyes, or her own unique smell Tina would inhale while kissing the underside of Bette arms, or how Bette moved her feet in circles while trying to fall asleep and how this would annoy Tina to death, or the endless feelings of insecurity she tried to hide under that tough exterior-something Tina was always aware of and didnt know how to talk to Bette about.
so many things so many little thingsI guess I didnt really know Betteotherwise I would be able to see this coming
Tina groaned again, uncomfortable with the knowledge that those hands she once shared her most secret placestouched another. Tina felt bile rise in her throat and she ran to the toilet, puking up everything she ate in the past 24 hours, puking all the ***** that went down up. Eventually Tina crawled back to her bed, feeling heavy and tired.
***** this ***** her ***** her ***** BETTE
Tina felt tears well up and it finally took her, she criedshe unhooked her bra and cried again and again