The babies were feed and fast asleep now. Tina went to take a nap. She knew if she didnt she would never get any rest. Bette dressed and got ready to meet with her lawyer. She laid down on the bed and curled up behind Tina. In her mind she started to tell Tina 50 times. Then hearing Tinas breathing slow. Bette knew she was sound asleep. She kissed Tina good bye and whispered I love you. Forever I promise. Then gently left her loving family to sleep and dream.

The meeting with the lawyer went fast. Everything was completed on his computer and ready to print and sign. Bette would be selling some of her art collection to pay off the house. Allowing for extra in saving. Should something happen to her there would be more than enough left of her art collection for Tina to live off of for a very long time. As well as Life Insurance. Peggy acting as if the twins were her own grandchildren had set up a trust fund when they were born. With everything set Bette let out a sign of relief. She had not be able to make these changes before because of her mental status. Now she felt secure that her family would always be provided for. Question now was how would she tell Tina? When would she tell Tina?

The next day Tina had her appointment with Dr. Wilson. She wanted to go alone because she had some personal questions she needed to ask. Besides Bette needed to stay with the twins.

Tina opened the fridge to get everything out for breakfast. So opened the carton of eggs and found something laying on top. Sitting the eggs on the counter Tina sat down to read.

Tina,

As each day goes by
I find that
I am moving into new depths and
new dimensions;
I am discovering new feeling and emotions.
Each day is different
and carries with it
its own unique aspect of beauty.
And with each new day,
I find myself falling
deeper and deeper
In love with you.

B

Tina could not believe the love she felt for Bette. Something was definitely different about her lately. It wasnt that this was new. Its just that Bette could not have picked a better time to start again.

Everything checked out just fine and Tina changed back into her clothes and waiting for Dr. Wilson to return. Dr. Wilson came back in and took a seat.

Dr. Wilson: Tina everything looks great. Your blood work is fine and you healed better than I would have expected with lil AJ being rather large. How is Jordan doing?

Tina: Oh, youd never know now that he was so much smaller than Amy Jo.

Dr. Wilson: Well he certainly had me fooled. It has been a long time with all of the medical advances since I missed a twin hiding like he did. How is Bette coming along?

Tina: Shes doing great. Tired a lot but since chemo ended I’m hoping shell get her strength back. Speaking of Bette. Dr. Wilson. Theres something I wanted to ask you.

Dr. Wilson: Yes Tina it is perfectly safe to resume all natural activity with Bette. This booklet will help explain a few more things. For instance using the breast pump before having ***** so you wont have an unexpected discharge of milk. You will need to talk to Bette about vaginal penetration. Although you have healed you still may experience some discomfort. Just take it slow and talk to Bette. Let her know what you are feeling.

Tina: I assume this is always the first question you are asked on the last visit.

Dr. Wilson: That it is. However some husbands start asking before birth. (both laughing)

Tina: Well you certainly answered all of my question. Accept for one. I feel My body I feel different I cant explain it, but my body responds or feels different when Bette touches me. I dont mean in a bad way. Just not in a way I am use to. I know my hormones at still a bit crazy, but I feel different.

Dr. Wilson: Tina what you are feeling is completely normal my dear. Your body went through a lot of changes this past year. You as well as your body have matured. You are not the same young woman that came to me over a year ago Tina. You have that glow about you Tina. That glow that every mother has. Bette loves you more than anything Ive ever seen before. Everything will be just fine. I promise.

Tina: Dr. Wilson I dont know what I would have done without you. Thanks you for helping me to have the two most precious children in the world. Bette and I could not have done this without you. There is one other thing. Ive been overly depressed.

Dr Wilson: Tina, some women dont tell anyone about their symptoms because they feel embarrassed, ashamed, or guilty about feeling depressed when they are supposed to be happy. They worry that they will be viewed as unfit parents.

Tina: That’s how Ive felt.

Dr Wilson: Postpartum depression can affect your ability to parent. You may lack energy, have trouble concentrating, be irritable, and not be able to meet the twins needs for love and affection. As a result, you may feel guilty and lose confidence in yourself as a mother, which can worsen the depression. You need to share this with Bette as well so she can assist in meeting the needs of the twins when you are depressed.

Tina: Oh Bette helps so much. If it wasnt for the fact that I am breast feeding. Well sometimes I wonder if.. Well I guess its the depression making me feel this way. I know Bette is only trying to help and be there for us.

Dr Wilson: Tina just talk. Youll be amazed what a wonderful prescription that is that I daily prescribe to my new mothers.

Both women embrace. Dr. Wilsons job was done for now. She couldnt help but smile. Satisfied knowing how much these two went through just to bring life into this world. Beautiful life and she was a part of it.

I arrived back home to find Bette rocking lil Jordan in her arms. Bettes eyes were closed and I could tell she was falling asleep. I leaned down and kissing her sweetly taking Jordan from her arm. Placing him gently into his crib. I took Bettes hand and led her into the bedroom. Slowing undressing her I lowered her back onto the bed. One last check on our children. Turning the monitor on I crawled into bed with her.

Bette: Hi. Everything ok?

Tina: Yea, I’m fine.

Bette: Shes sure? I mean certain.

Tina: Yea she said everything healed really nicely. She even gave me this booklet to read about things and such.

Bette: What kind of things?

Tina: Well, just things to do before making love and stuff.

Bette: OH! Really.. Like?

Tina: Like using the breast pump so you dont devour all of the children food.

Bette: Its doesnt say that! Does it?

Tina: No (giggling) its so there isnt an unexpected discharge.

Bette: Oh, I see.

Tina: Bette?

Bette: Yea honey.

Tina: It also talks about how a womans body changes. How I might feels different.

Bette: Different how baby?

Tina: Well you know. Having twins I’m not exactly like I use to be.

Bette: Baby, I know what you are getting at. To be honest, I picked that booklet up at her office at your last checkup. The only thing that matters to me is that you love me still. No changes to your body or anything else could ever make not want you. All of you. I love you so much Tina. You are so beautiful. How could I not want you.

Tina: Oh Bette I love you too. I was just so worried.

Bette: Baby please dont be worried about anything. I’m not.. I know I still desire you.

Tina: I want you too baby.

Bette: Hey did I mention that Stacey and Whit want to baby-sit so we can have a night to ourselves.

Tina: Youre kidding.

Bette: No I’m not. She offered the other day at my visit. I just forgot to tell you because I was so tired when I got home. What do you think about letting them come her and you and I will go somewhere nice.

Tina: That sounds wonderful. I.. I just feel a little worried about leaving them for the first time.

Bette: Baby we wont go far and they have our numbers. You can call home anytime you want and check on the twins. How does that sound?

Tina: Ok lets do it. Now how about a nap while the twins are asleep.