A stale humid smell floats above Tinas head, sometimes coming down and choking her. What a ***** hellhole. Tina wonders why Bette wanted to meet here; she wonders what she wants period. After reading Bettes letter Tina had to stop herself from flying to New York. Never had she wanted someone so much. All night Tina had been thinking about everything that made her love her, what made Bette tick. How even though Bettes faults were mountain-high there was something so simply good. Something in the way Bette would whisper in Tinas ear after making love, unbeknownst to her Tina was awake during those times. She felt Bette moving, looking at hermaking sure Tina was asleepthen settling herself down stroked Tinas hair while whispering the most erotic and love-soaked confessionals Tina had ever heard. One night, after Tina first went down on her Bette waited for almost two hours to make sure Tina was asleep. Tina was actually resting, sleep was furthest from her mind even though she had never been so tired. Feeling a touch Tina still lay still, enjoying the warmth the scent of their union. Bette then nuzzled her shoulder and with her fingers touched and played with Tinas hair. Tina smiled slightly and momentarily felt paralyzed at the sudden sensation of Bettes whispers right by her ear. It was the first time of many late-night talks but Tina would never ever forget this one. She could feel herself physically responding just thinking about it, feeling touched at how child-like Bette sounded sometimes how vulnerable, almost shy.

            Tina.you cant hear me but your heart can, see how fast it is even now? Im getting to know that heart, the feel of it beating against my skinlike Ive never felt one beat against mine beforeyou know Tsweet ***** feels like I was a virgin tonight all over again, never been so nervous in my lifeI dont remember the last time I let someone…go down on meopening my legs like that scares me most of the time becausebecause it feels like the person will climb inside and Ill be exposedsounds ***** psychotic but its true, but youI can see you there kissing my knee my navelwhen your tongue first touched Ive never felt so ***** turned on.and your mouth tasted so good after I could smell and taste myself all over your tonguelying here now my darling, all I want is to lie here foreveryou make me feel like a child, scared but so filled with wonder at the beauty of the worldmy darling I think that is what Im rediscovering, the beauty of the world..not just art but beauty in things I can see smell l feel touchthe other night for almost an hour all I did was touch every fruit in the bowl on my table, I just felt them for the first time, the smoothness the scent the lifeIm so weirdbaby I think you bring out things in me I havent done in years, feeling so giddy isnt my stylebut one look from you and my nerves wreak havoc on everything, you make me nervous my darlingI love you, honey I love you.can you hear me say this to you my sweet my darling, I love you..god it feels so good to say ittake me my lovetake me.

            The clang of the coffee shop door snapped Tina back to reality. A steaming white hot cup of mocha warmed her hands and the sudden burst of chilly air broke her dreamy thoughts. The day was rainy and cold, but what warmed Tina right up was the sight of Bette.standing by the door looking right, centerthen turning her headthat lovely face looking right at her. Tina felt her stomach rise and flutter all around..and for one beautiful moment Tina forgot all about their problems.