The next hour would be etched into Bette’s mind forever. After having a terrible screaming match Bette sank down to the floor in sheer exhaustion. The realization of what she had just done to her daughter hit her so hard bile came up…Bette swallowed her puke as to not vomit her disgust out. She wiped the sweat from her brow and saw how her hands were shaking. Angelica was on the floor, her fast breathing slowing down. She took her underwear and put it back on…also slowly taking her jeans and putting it back down. Bette stood up and took a cup from the bathroom counter and filled it with water….she took a sip then turned around and sat on the floor again…she stretched out her arm and offered the water to Angelica. Angie wiped her mouth clean from vomit with her sleeve…she took the cup and downed the liquid. Bette tried to smile, failed, and instead started to cry…big racking sobs. Angelica put down the cup and moved herself to her mom, she wrapped her amrs around Bette…held her. “im so sorry angel im so so sorry im so sorry” Angelica hugged and rubbed Bette’s back. Bette breathed deeply trying to calm herself…take control….be cool…calm down. She wiped her eyes and looked at her daughter….jesus her daughter..sweet Angelica, poor angelica. Suddenly Bette felt no anger whatsoever…of course Angelica wouldn’t tell her…when had she ever told Bette what really goes on? Bette looked in Angelica’s eyes…saw Tina looking back at her…and her face split with tears. How could she? Social Services could take Angie away if her daughter ever told someone. Angelica spoke softly and held her mom again. Angie started to sing an old scottish cradle song….Bette leaned into her daughter. After a half hour of this Angelica quietly said she would have an abortion…Bette flinched hard. She tlooked at Angelica in the eyes again……..”whatever you do Angelica i’ll always love and support you…if you want to have the baby i’ll support you, if you want to get rid of it i’ll support you….and in anything else no matter what you say or do it doesn’t change the fact that i love you so much maybe too  much…and i’ll never forgive myself, im so sorry……”     Bette saw Angelica close her eyes, smile….and whisper…”i love you mom”  Both got up and cleaned the bathroom and then Bette boiled some water…they were out of tea though. “i’ll get some ok Angel..i’ll be right back”  Angelica nodded but before Bette was out the door she suddenly grabbed Bette and hugged her something fierce. Bette felt tears coming again…her daughter was so exposed so open..she kissed Angie and hugged again. “i forgive you mom” Angelica whispered that in Bette’s ear, Bette leaned inot Angelica some more. Eventually she left, tea would help them both sleep.