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    To Love Again, To Live Again

    Story written on September 10, 2005 by goldfish.
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    A B&T story……..five years after the fall

    To Love Again, To Live Again                           Chapter 1

     

     

    Bette looked at her reflection in the mirror.  She could see the faint start of lines around her eyes and mouth.  No gray hair yet, thank god.  She wondered, as she did every day if the last five years had been kind to Tina.

     

    She thought of her everyday.  Her smile, her smell, her taste.  All the things that were so uniquely Tina were still so real in Bette’s memory.

     

    Well it was time.  Time to go back.  Time to go to Los Angeles to face the past.  Time to make amends.  She had tried, but she could no longer hide her feelings.  She wanted to move forward in her life and in order to do that she had face the music, slay the demons that haunted her.  She had to try; she had realized she needed Tina in her life in some capacity.  She would start with friendship and hopefully she would win her back as her partner in life.  But whatever the out come, she had to have closure.

     

    Five years ago.  After Bette had destroyed their lives Bette had moved to Paris.  They had talked before she left, Bette had pleaded.  But Tina wanted her space; she wanted to get her individuality back.  She had said she was tired of being Bette’s wife or being referred to as bette-n-tina.  So Bette had conceded and decided to give her room to grow.  When the opportunity to get a job in Paris came up Bette took it.  It was suppose to be a two year stint and now after five years her contract was done. 

     

    Bette loved Paris.  She had been back to visit LA to see Kit and the girls several times.  But seeing Tina with other women while she was there was more than she could handle.  She knew the move had been the right choice.

     

    The gang and Kit had been to visit her once or twice and they kept her aware of Tina’s life.  She had even talked to her a few times when she had seen her.  It was polite conversation, nothing more.

     

    But now it was time.  She was moving home, back with a new job and house.  She had been offered the chance to be director of the Art Center of LA (ACLA) and she jumped at it.  Kit had helped her find a house close to the Center and close to the old neighborhood.  No one knew she was moving back except Kit.  It was going to be a surprise.

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    15. I think you should make Bette more torn about her feelings for Claire. It gives their relationship more credibility, making Claire more than a straw woman, waiting to be knocked down. If Bette has already conceded that she can love no one but Tina, then all the power to decide her future resides with Tina. Drama exists by driving up the stakes.

      What if Bette wants to go back to L.A. to settle, once and for all, if she has any future with Tina before she settles down with Claire? That setup would open the door for possibilities. As it is, Bette already has a job and a house in L.A. What if Tina says no? Then, Bette has placed all her eggs in one basket and it could all come a cropper, leaving Bette looking like a fool.

      A beautiful fool, to be sure. I love B&T together too.

      Just a couple thoughts…

    17. Ah, that’s always such a joy to see your name appears on the list. This unique Goldfish’s touch ! I love it – but you already know that.
      Well, even if I’m a big fan of your so engaging “In the Beginning” story, I can understand how a talented author like you prefers to begin something new for a while, if inspiration wasn’t there for now. But I’m confident : this break will finally bring it back to you and no doubt you’ll give us updates of ITB as soon as the success of this new great story of yours will galvanize your inspiration ! This way, we lucky readers will have a double pleasure to enjoy your so fine and sensitive writing.

      I already looking forward updates for this new story of yours, Goldfish : this beginning is excellent !
      I especially appreciate here the way you brang so much questions for which we’ll only have answers later : we have to wait as patiently as we could – and that’s a gourmet pleasure, for me…
      Many questions indeed : what happened to Tina during these 5 long years ? Has she also have someone similar to Claire in her life – or is she alone ? And what happened to the gang ? Did they keep the same lives or not ? How everybody – and above all Tina, of course ! – will react to Bette’s come back ?
      Anyway, you already show us something very positive : a new Bette, who obviously had worked a lot about herself during all these years, using the time and distance as essential ways to realize why things happened and, consequently, what had to be changed in herself to try her luck with Tina again – giving her new reasons to trust her. Just to see the way our Bette was so honest and open-hearted with Claire, from the very beginning of their relationships, is enough to fully understand how she actually changed for the best.

      By the way, Claire is a wonderful, likeable and touching character, understanding until sacrifice, loving on the must unselfish way, considering Bette’s happiness more then her own one… God, this girl is truly admirable ! Well, even being such an unquestioning fan of B&T together, I cannot help but feeling deeply sad and sorry for her – and only your talent is to blame for that ! (*wink*)

      Thank you so much for this new gift, dear Goldfish : you were, you are and you will always be a delight to read.

    21. “We will always have Paris” – A beautiful start. This is elegant and classy, top draw ……..well done. Thank you for your time, and for posting, a pleasure to read.

    24. wooo awsome story. I wonder if T is still single ok she asked about Bette but you never now. I hope Bette will get her back. Thanks and I hope you will update soon.

    25. Wow, this Claire, sounds incredible. But, Tina will always the one for Bette, regardless of time, people, events, and relationships. There’s just nobody for Bette, but Tina, and nobody for Tina, but Bette. I hope Claire comes to L.A. and finds someone, other then Bette to fall in love with. Great beginning. I’ll be awaiting your next post for this story, as well as the other one.

    28. Gold..great beginning. I’m intrigued with the concept…please write more. LOL. I really enjoy your stories…so I”m looking forward to following this one also. Thanks Gold…so please continue. ;-)

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