Bette, Shane and Dana sat stuck in a huge traffic jam heading out of Los Angeles.   Shane’s cell phone began to ring.  Opening the phone she sees that it is Alice calling.  “Hey Al is everything still O.K. with Tina and the baby?” said Shane tentatively.  “They have taken her back and are going to do a c-section” replied Alice.  Shane relayed the information to Bette and Dana.  “Shane is Bette o.k.?” asked Alice quietly.  “As well as can be expected I guess” replied Shane.  “O.K. tell her that they tried to stop Tina’s labor but suddenly the baby’s heart rate slowed down and they had to go ahead and take the baby” said Alice.  “They said that barring any complications Tina should be in recovery in about 30 minutes or so” added Alice.  “What about the baby Al?” asked Shane.   “We can only hope for the best” replied Alice.  “How long before you guys get here?” said Alice.  “Right now we are sitting still in traffic and Bette is ready to get out and walk to San Diego,” said Shane quietly.  “I hope that we will be there in the next couple of hours, but we will have to see.  This traffic is horrible today” said Shane.  “I’ll call you as soon as I find out anything else” replied Alice.  Bette had been listening intently to the phone call but seemed at a loss for what to say.  “Bette I’m sure everything will be o.k.” said Shane as she gently touched Bette’s shoulder.

           
            Bette looked straight ahead and said “What if it isn’t Shane?  What if I loose Tina or the baby?  Don’t you see that I can’t imagine what my life would be like if something happened to Tina.  I understand that everyone thinks that I am terrible for what I did, but it wasn’t that I stopped loving Tina I stopped loving myself.  Somewhere along the way I forgot how to support our relationship.  I didn’t blame her for the miscarriage, but I never bothered to tell her that.  I shut down emotionally.  Candace made me feel like I mattered.  Like somehow regardless of how I felt about myself, she didn’t care she had no expectations.  With Tina I could see the disappointment in her eyes every time she looked at me.”  Shane surprised herself and said “What the ***** do you think Tina was feeling?  Whether or not you blamed her for loosing the baby, she blamed herself. Look Bette, I’m sorry but you have to realize that you both lost each other but you were the one that went to someone else.”  “Shane that’s enough” said Dana.  “I think Bette understands what the ramifications are from what happened” said Dana.