Chapter 16

Bette: (it didn’t take me too much time to find the answer I needed…. so I took off the jacket I was wearing and placed it on her shoulders covering her naked back…. and at the same time I kissed her very softly. As I was putting my arms around her she let her entire body rest against mine…. with her face burried in my neck)

Tina: I’m sorry…. I’m so sorry Bette…. I just….

Bette: shhhh…. you have nothing to apologize for….. you didn’t do anything wrong T…. it’s ok…. we

Tina: (interrupting Bette) did you just call me T?

Bette: wh… mmmm….. I guess I did…. you don’t like it?

Tina: (lifting her head a little and smiling) I love it….. I love that you have your own way of calling me…. it’s another thing that makes you different from everybody else….

Bette: ok then…. I guess you have a new nickname….

Tina: and how should I call you? Legeng? (releasing a small giggle)

Bette: oh nooo….. I hate it…… actually now that I think about it I have lots of nicknames….

Tina: and what’s your favourite one?

Bette: none…. I like Bette….. but you can call me…. honey? Babe? Sweetie? Darling I’m home? You choose one….. (smiling)

Tina: (grinning) mmmmm…… (kissing her softly) you’re so sweet….. don’t worry I’ll figure one out…..

And so they remained there…. one on top of the other just holding each other…. making small talk….. laughing and caressing each other….. until very late in the evening…..

Bette

Eventually Tina fell asleep on my arms…. actually on me….. but I didn’t even move…. well occasionally when I stopped feeling parts of my body….. but they were soft movements….. I didn’t want to wake her up…. or take her to the house…. even less back to the cruise…..

She felt so good….. to hear her soft breathing….. to contemplate her face….. she looked exactly the way angels must look when they sleep….. and all of her, specially the concept of her sleeping on top of me….. holding on to me gave so much peace…. a feeling I’m not familiar with….. and that’s when I realized that I was already in love with her…… with her mind, her body, her soul, her heart…… with the idea of her in my life everyday…. she’s my match…. the one person that makes me complete…. she’s the one…. oh my god….. I’m in so much trouble….

Tina

When I woke up the red and orange colors of the sunset were already beginning to appear in the horizon…..

It took me a minute to realize that I was still on top of Bette…. with her jacket on my shoulders and my arms around her waist and my face still burried on her neck…. oh my god…. what a beautiful smell she has….. I lifted my head a little and she was sleeping…. I couldn’t tell if she’s more beautiful when she sleeps or when she smiles…. mmmmm….. she feels so good…. and she’s so sweet and tender….. everything she says or does makes me melt…. and the way she looks at me, the way her face lights up when she smiles….. she is gorgeous…. and I feel so safe right now…. with her arms around me, it’s like I’m inside this fortress where everything is so calm and peaceful and nothing can touch me or hurt me…. I realized that I haven’t slept so well and so much in years….. and I’m not even in a bed….. and then it hit me…. everything was so clear now…. she’s responsible for everything….. for putting this big smile on my face, for making me blush even when I’m not around her, for making my heart beat so fast when I see her….. and my belly jumping inside me…..  and feeling this large amount of peace with only seeing her sleep…… holly shit…. I’m desperately…. helplessly…. madly in love with her….. is this even possible?…..