Chapter 13

Shane felt good after hearing Danas letter, She had felt so bad, that she was not with her, when she drew her last breath, but this helped her release the guilt of not being there. She told Carmen to go ahead and read her letter from Dana. Carmen smiled gave her a quick kiss and opened the letter.

Carmen,

We havent known each other long, but in the little time we have had together, I feel I know you pretty well. And I always enjoyed our poker night, drinking nights and just plain shooting the bull to all hours of the morning, You are a fantastic DJ, And I can see you will be big in the industry one day, just dont give up on your dreams. And dont give up on Shane either, Cause I know you love her and Shane has a hard time showing her feelings, but that girl loves you, and the two of you need to seize the moment, live and love, that would be my wish for you, Take care of yourself and my buddy Shane, I love you Carmen

Dana

Carmen put the letter down and drew Shane close to her, I love you Shane, I love you too Carmen, They raised their beer bottles and toasted Dana We will miss you dear friend and we will never forget you ever.

The next evening Becky was getting ready to end her shift, as became a ritual, she went to Marissas room to sit with her while she ate her dinner. Hi Marissa, How are you doing this evening? she asked. I am actually feeling better, the nausea is almost gone, and I take my last treatment tomorrow Morning. The Dr says I might even be able to go home by the end of the week. It has been so long since I have been home, I am really excited. That is wonderful; I will talk to your Dr and get the specifics on when you will be released, so I can arrange my schedule to take you home. If that is ok with you? Of course, I want you too. I know that I dont have much time left, but I want to be home, not here. Do you understand Becky? Yes I do, and I will do everything I can to make you comfortable, When I cant be there with you, a nurse will be there. Thank you Becky, you have been so good to me, I abandoned you, yet you have been there for me these past months, I dont deserve your compassion or your forgiveness. Why Becky. Do you give it so willingly, is it because you know I am dyeing? I walked over to my mother and I kneeled down in front of her, I looked her in the eyes, and I told her, I dont have the right to judge you for your past actions, What you did, was a very long time ago, I want to move forward, I want to tell you about my life, and that even though I missed having my mother, I had a good life. My father loved me dearly, and always made sure I knew it.