Chapter 15

I am sitting back gazing at the sky, watching the sun rise, I have had another night of tossing and turning, Seems to me I have had quite a few of them these past months. I have so many thoughts playing back and forth in my head, and no one to bounce them off of. It is times like this, that I miss john the most, he knows just how to distract me from over analyzing everything. I couldnt even talk to him last night, He is flying our President out of the country this month, and when he is doing that, he can have no distractions; security is very tight, seclusion is mandatory, and necessary.

Anyway, Bette and I decided last night, that Marissa would not be told ahead of time, that she is coming, We are going to just see how it plays out. I know Marissa will be very happy, it will be a shock, but I welcome one for her, by all the photo albums she kept and the articles on Bettes life, I know she always wanted to see her again one day. She will have a chance to make peace with Bette, and maybe if Bette is willing to make that peace, she will continue to visit her and bring Tina and the baby to see her too. I am brought out of my thoughts, with the ringing of my alarm; it is time to start the day, of one that will prove to be another emotional one for us all.

My shift was almost over, I just have to write a few notes for my night nurse, and then I was going to meet Bette by the cafeteria. I checked on Marissa earlier we had lunch, she was feeling pretty good, it makes me happy to see her smile, and we talked about my children. She wanted to hear about them. They are actually adults, they are both living in Colorado, My son Frank is a pilot also, and he is stationed in Colorado Springs. Lisa is finishing up school there, She is going to be a High School teacher, and will be taking a job at one of the Schools close to Frank. They love Colorado, It was one of the longest bases John was stationed at, We lived there through all of their High School and College years, they love it there, Frank is engaged to a local girl, so I dont see him moving back here, but I do see him often. Lisa may decide to move here one day, but I am not sure. As long as they are happy, I am.