SECOND CHANCES 2

When Bette entered the house Helena asked What are you doing here? Bette smiled Good night Helena. Wheres your expensive Brittis education? Helena smiled, the woman was just trying to be friendly, lets star again, night Bette, come on, want a dring? Sure, beer please. Ok, dont look at me with that face, dont say a world, I like beer, why all the people have to look a me with that face when I say the word beer?? Helena smiled maybe because all the world think about you drinking cosmos, martinis… anything more chic and less dyke… said Helena giving her a beer, here it is, one for you, one for me… Helena gave a big sip to the beer and said so, wanna hear Dylans nightmare story?

            Bette was surprised about the first step been given by Helena, but even more was Helena. She felt confortable close to Bette, she didnt knew why but she trusted her, she liked her. Helena opened her heart as much that it hurts, she was truly sincere with Bette, she told everything about Dylan, Danny, the harassment, the monetary agrreement, and Dylans last visit. Two beers and half and hour later Helena took a moment to breath, looked at Bette and saw something she had never seen in anyone, understanding without judgment and it that moment she decided to be sincere, Bette I told you Dylan left the money in the front door, but… with the money she left a video tape, the tape was something with the pretension of doing amends. Im not sure if the idea was making amends with herself for her behaviour or if she was trying to apologize. Anyway I… she stopped for a moment to regain her compusture, her eyes were fill with tears and she felt her heart broken in thousand pieces. The tape was recorded by herself and she said that she was sorry for everything that she made, for everything that happende. She said or at least I understand it had been Dannys idea, and  that she had fallen in love with me but she was not strong enough as to admit she was a lesbian. How can you love a woman, how can you made love to a woman say you loved her with all your heart and then thel her that you are not ready to think about yourself like a fucking lesbian??