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    Those Adoring Eyes – Chapter 1

    Story written on August 24, 2006 by Jobadge.
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    A day at the beach… (Part 1 of 4)

     

    Those Adoring Eyes – Chapter 1

    The text read, “I’ll be thinking of you both.”

    Kit had known that I would not answer the home phone or my cell.  Not today, not on this day, the day I remember, and I am thankful that my sister also remembers. 

    I also know that Tina remembers, although I am unaware of how she will remember today, we remembered this day together last year, but the year before on what would have been the day he was due to be born, I did that alone, just like today.  And today…, today the son we lost would have been blowing out 2 candles.

    I park the car, and sit for a moment, contemplating what I knew would be a day of thought, recollection, fond memories, painful memories and solitude, its still very early and the only people who are here are a few runners taking an early morning run and an odd person or two, sitting to watch the sunrise.

    I gather the only three things that I desire today, a blanket to sit on, a sweater for later, because I knew that darkness would descend from the sky by the time I leave, and a bottle of water, my favourite, her favourite, our favourite, Pellengrino.

    I slip my shoes off as I reach the sand, feeling the coolness underfoot, the sun’s warmth not yet caressing the sand with its rays as I head for the place where I always sat – the one particular rock that I would lean against as I spent the day in my own company.

    The sand sinks around my toes with each step I take, my footprints being the only ones on this part of the beach, the sweeping tide having smoothed the surface from yesterdays enthusiastic visitors, the smoothness of the fresh sand was in such stark contrast to how she was feeling and the reason I was here, I didn’t want the waves of time to erase the memory, I came to this place that is washed clean each day to remember, to fortify the memory of my son, so that he isn’t forgotten, my memory will never be washed clean.

    I take a deep breath, holding it inside for a moment as my eyes take in the rock that was my destination for the day, the memories that I know that will occupy my thoughts quickly flashing through my mind, the previous days I have spent here, the company I had at the time, and the days that I spent alone here.

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    1. Pass the tissues please………I’ve officially had my first Fan Fic Bawl.Yes,i’m crying like a 2 year old baby. You have no idea how amazing this fic is Job. Iam just simply shocked and in Tolal amazement over how real this chapter is. For the first time ever,Iam crying for and with Bette.I now know how she feels about this relationship.Sad.IC and creators are not on your level, and i doubt if they ever will. You’re good Job.Post soon.

    2. Furthermore..i Hate S3 even more now. I hate IC even more than that. I Hate what they’ve done to this couple. I think you’re writing made me realize how sad This B&T relationship is. I still have hope,but it’s just soooo sad.

    4. Oh, my. What a story. Made all the more poignant and satisfying because I know I’ll never see anything remotely as thoughtful on my television screen. Thank you so much.

    9. Jo… i’m just speechless… Okay, one thing that you must know is that I never, NEVER, read any story set after season 3! For obvious reasons… But then again, it’s Jobadge here! And that’s worth reading anything, cause at the end of the day, she is the B&T guardian angel!!! Well, it turns out you really are! Thank you for making me so sad, because the little tiny bit of hope you unveil at the end is just magical and so worth it… Only YOU could make me tolerate season 3 if concluded like that. I’ll say it again Jo: Thanks to the Master for this masterpiece!

    16. My goodness you sure can write! This is a killer one off…as is with all your stories, a continuation is always wanted. This story is so descriptive of everything that is running through Bette’s mind; and although it is unwritten I can feel what’s going on in Tina’s mind from Bette’s thoughts and feelings. Awesome Jo! Thank you!

    22. Damn, you’re good! Your story telling covers every emotion there is. You even get us silent ones to speak. Do you think you could stretch it to a few more chapters….please?

    26. This was absolutely beautiful. Your writing is so descriptive that I could actually visualize them on the beach, the sunset, Angelica faling into the sand…it mad my heart heavy, but it gives me hope. Please make it right between them ? Your beautiful words can make it all better, at least until S4 starts and IC get’s her hands on B&T. Post soon.

    29. Damn I think you just caused a worldwise tissue shortage! I’m glad I didn’t try reading this at work. I think we all need a group hug. *hug* Okay, someone is squeezing me a little too tight. My left boob is getting squished. Now to get serious. This story is definitely painful. I can’t begin to imagine what it’s like to want to grieve but feel like you can’t because your partner is falling apart. And I just thought of something. If Tina didn’t tell Henry about her and Bette’s son, then it’s obvious she’s not serious about him. That’s not usually a detail one omits.

    30. The intense feelings of the overwhelming grief washing through Bette was brought to light through this chapter. The show never really delt with this or any other matter for their major story lines. Too many issues were never resolved or left as it is. There was never any closer for either Bette or Tina in anything about their life together. It was like what Bette and Tina shared was swept under a rug. It is my hope that you will continue this story and allow Bette to let go of some of her grief and for Tina to be there to catch her this time.

    34. Jo, that was so powerful! It brought up so many emotions for me. I made the mistake of starting this at work, and I just finished it several hours later. So sad…I could relate to many of the feelings relayed here, coinciding with many levels of loss. The line, “I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you…” really killed me! I appreciate the glimmer of hope there at the end, but in my 52 years, I realize I’ve become quite cynical. Is there a chance for us to be truly happy? Can love really last? Anyway, a great post once again! I agree that you should continue!

    35. I don’t know how to say it properly, but damm! You’re the same person who make me cry as hard as I laughed with the “bathroom” situation? Great story; I’m so glad you remembered Gaymo. Thanks!

    38. Your writing is both gripping and realistic. The emotions and the metaphors your include only build a strong and healthy foundation for an amazingly well constructed story. I hope, as do many, that you will allow this to be a preview to a new Bette and Tina beginning. Thank you so much for this!!

    43. Jobadge…this CAN’T be a one shot deal…this story has been on my mind and in my head all day yesterday…in my freakin dreams…and all day today…you can’t DO THAT to me…I need this to continue. Please!

    44. Wow!…I had to read ths twice before i could leave any comment that would make sense!…with the lump in my throat and i have to say a tear in my eye,this one really, really got to me,written with such powerful emotion,it was heartbreaking…and even though Tina has told Bette that she misses her..that was heartbreaking too!…I cant tell you how much i loved this chapter…and even if you dont add to it..if you decide to leave it as a one off…(tho i think you should continue! )it will always remain one of your best chapters…Thanks mate, your talent just goes on!..

    46. ok ok IC do you read any of these fanfics? cause if you do, there are a few writers on this site, who can really entertain us for S4 with thier beautiful writing. and Jobadge here is one of the best. Thankyou Jobadge

    51. Pls… You can’t stop here… You have to make this into a longer story *puppydogeyes* PLEASE? This was the most moving, loving, emotional rollercoaster I have ever read… You are a master Jobadge… A true master… Thank you so much!

    53. Damn my friend you made me cry, this is heartbreaking and like the amazing ending and hope you will have another one for us to see them back together as a family and happy forever. Thanks!!!!!!!!!!

    56. If someone walks pass my desk right now…how can I explain the tears in my eyes? My spreadsheet? Inner office e-mail? Thanks alot Jobadge…I really like this beginning. Thank you.

    58. amazing chapter since the beginnig until the last letter a lot of deeps feelings, it was so sad that sometimes i had to stop cause the tears can’t allow me to read. i hope you will continue with this story. Congrats!

    61. oh boy – i cried most of the way through that. i know that must have been hard to write so well done mate. this is just so sensitive and sad but at the end you give us hope in B/T. Pity the muppets in charge of the show do not have your level of creativity and compassion. Ally x

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