As Sure As The Sun  PT 2

CH 3

She cuts my skin and bruise my lips
She’s everything to me
She tears my clothes and burns my eyes
She’s all I want to see
She brings the cold and scars my soul
She’s heaven sent to me.

The woman from my dreams is real.

I kissed her in my sleep and there she was…Was she the visitor they mentioned? I feel like we have been apart forever. I don’t know why I can’t remember anything. I stare at the picture of Shane with my son and those elderly people. They seem familiar….. on the edge of my brain…yet they don’t look happy…she said something about me being dead. again what kind of life was I leading?…Why does this not make any sense?

I stare up at the ceiling…she will explain things to me…I felt so like me……whoever I am… when we kissed…like that was what I was missing. So much was missing…missing  pieces…she said she would be back…I made a list of what I remember.

Flash of Shane and me.

“What ever it is you can tell me…………but I know you won’t. So how about you just tell me your favorite color and we call it a day.”

“It’s green. almost the color of your eyes… my favorite color…….”

“Hey…”

“You came back….what’s your favorite color?”

“Monochrome…”

“I just remembered something…we were talking by your motorcycle….in some kind of parking lot…”

“Yeah I remember that…I asked you what your favorite color was.”

“Green like your eyes…”

“You remembered that just now.”

“Yes……..why does everyone look so unhappy in this picture”

“Well we all thought you were dead….my boy Endy took this picture…”

“I don’t remember anyone named Endy…”

“It’s ok….god..every time I think about it I have to pinch myself….my whole life was over…I was so close. so close to never coming back…I missed you so much….it’s like unreal…every time we get close…something just tears us apart….I make promises that it won’t happen and now it’s been twice already…..”