As Sure As The Sun PT 5

Ch 12

The vision softly fades
But there’s a light that still remains
And in these walls I feel your sadness wane
But in a moment you’ll feel no pain

We walk back on our own to her room, we are holding hands. My face still bleeding. Carmen seems more relaxed. Calm. She goes to her bathroom to get some stuff to clean up my cut. I sit and wait for her. and I wait. And I wait. Done waiting I walk over to the bathroom and I knock. Knock. Knock. I hear her. she is crying. Trying to be brave. Her sniffles like acid on my skin, I feel that bad. She says come in after the longest time has passed.

I see her and she is sitting on her bath tub, on the edge. She wipes away the evidence of her feelings. I felt that lump in my throat you know the one you get when you try to not to feel.

“Don’t cry….Carmen….”

“Yeah, don’t cry, don’t fear, don’t feel….you won’t die right cause none of this is real.”

“You’re wasting time thinking like this.’

She just looks at me. Eyes red, puffy. She has some rubbing alcohol in her hand……….I guess she wasn’t done wanting to hurt me. I sit on the floor right in front of her. she curls her hair around her ear. she looks at me and pours the alcohol on a towel and cleans the cut. It’s on my cheek only higher like near my eye. It burns…..it’s familiar.

“Where did you get this?” She asks touching the scar on my chin.

“I use to be a street racer…. And I was racing this guy Johnny from The Outsiders…we fought and he cut me…..you took care of it sorta like now….”

You can see the wheels of her mind spinning trying to remember all that I just told her.

“Does this hurt?”

“No….”

“So how long have we been together?”

“Well it’s been like almost four years but really together, together, more like two……things just keep getting in the way………”