Bette’s p.o.v

Dear Diary,

I cannot believe Eric has just left Tina, what an asshole, the only positive can can think of is that at least it means I won’t have to endure seeing him fawning all over Tina constantly like a leper. She could do so so much better, she could have the perfect partner, someone who adores her and never takes her for granted.

She deserves me. I love her so much it hurts. I would give her my everything. Maybe I’ll tell her one day. Maybe I’ll tell her the day after tomorrow.

But how would she take it? I mean she’s not going to say ‘oh and I love you too Bette, I always have and always will’ is she? Tina is straight. Heterosexual.

Likes men, God knows why she falls for slime balls like Eric, oh and that dog Howard before that. Eugh. I swear he wanted to get into bed with me.

I remember a time when Tina was in the bathroom and he sat right next to me on the couch and was practically drooling over me, so I told him very sternly ‘Howard, your girlfriend is an amazing woman; kind, considerate, loving and intelligent , and she is just in that room over there and if I were her and came out and saw you all over me I certainly would not be happy to say the least, so please take your sleazy bony little hairy ass and go sit over there before I make you’.

I remember how scared he looked at the idea of Tina finding out. Of course, I told her the very next day and she left him almost straight away. It was as if she was looking for an excuse to leave him, or at least that’s the way I saw it.

Maybe she won’t freak out, I mean she knows I’m a lesbian, maybe she suspects that I like her.

Oh I don’t know, I jeep blurring reality and my imagination. I’ll think about it later. I’m going to bed.

Some lyrics form Take That’s ‘the day after tomorrow’

I’ll tell her the day after tomorrow, maybe today
So I’ll tell her the day after tomorrow, or is that too late

Being loved is a big responsibility,
You can never give too much back
You know its so easy to walk away and leave that lady flat
My life’s feeling crowded with possessions, am I lucky or sad
Is it time to turn away and lose everything I had

So Ill tell her the day after tomorrow, maybe today
So Ill tell her the day after tomorrow, or is that too late

Moving in circles, decisions chasing me round and round
Whys life never easy, or do we make it hard for ourselves
And when we find love we need to look for something new
cos when its all over, you always feel the need to be loved
Like she always loved you

The song is actually about cheating on a lover but I found the lyrics can also relate to the possibility of losing a friendship if Bette tells Tina she is in love with her, thus the title of the story.

Sorry it’s another short one but I promise the next one will be a bit longer.