I just feel like I’m constantly dreaming.

I can’t do this anymore… I can’t… her face…it hurts to see her hurt… But I had to do it… I had to kill Jimmy. I feel like I’m losing ground. Everyone hates admitting fear. Most people wanna know why their here… I know. I don’t do this for fun… I do it because it’s my calling, its what I do…

I’m through thinking of things to say to you. I’ve said enough and so have you. I needed you, probably as bad as I need another hole in the head. I know what they are going to do to me if they found me… I don’t care anymore. Life it’s not life if I can’t be with her. So I know the end is coming.

 I missed her so much. Sometimes I think is best if left in the memory, it’s better kept inside than left for good. Lately it seems like my dreams have started to die. Then I realized. ….that ….so have I. The things that keep me alive aren’t living here anymore…….

She sees much better than I see. And she knows all that I’m thinking. So Shane … I’m hear waiting

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That’s it… she over…I’m over. She killed a cop. My friend……. I need to find her. The only thing that keeps popping in my head, it’s the last part on the note…“Words are not meant to be kept from other”. She telling me something… but what? I think and thing until…

<(FLASHBACK)>

STREET/ A NIGHT CLUB/ AYEAR AGO/ THE PALACE

<(END FLASHBACK)>

The Palace… so that’s where you are. But that place closed, like 3 months ago…. I guess I’ll be there Carmen.

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(2 HOURS LATER)

So I’m here where you want me… now where are you Carmen (Then music started playing on the background and Carmen appeared)

“Can I have this dance?” she was so beautiful. She had a white dress on. She looked like an angel… my angel…

“yes” of course I said yes. She had the smile I loved. (They started dancing. Carmen had both hands on Shane’s neck and Shane’s hands on her waist) “You look beautiful” she smiled again… I can’t get enough of it… I haven’t seen her smile in a long time.

“Thank you… you look really bad” (They laughed)

“Thank you… I haven’t slept in a while so…”

“Why?”

“Because… because they are going to kill you Carmen”

“I’m not afraid to die Shane”

“But I’m afraid… of losing you” (Shane started crying)

“…… I love you Shane” shit… fuck she said it… she loves me….

“You have never said that before”

“I know… but I just, wanted you to know”… I love you” don’t say that…

“Don’t say that” (Shane was now crying hysterically) fuck

“Shane what’s wrong?… look at me ….” I cant, but I do (Shane looked at her)

“I Love you Carmen” I can’t stop crying

“I know Shane I know” (They hugged. Carmen trying to help Shane calm down)

“I sorry” (She said on Carmen’s neck)

“Shane don’t… ok you have nothing to be sorry about” yes I do

“I’m sorry” (Shane let go of Carmen. Carmen was confused. Then 5 guys stepped out of their hiding place and pointed their gun to Carmen)

“Carmen de la Pica Morales your under arrest”

(Carmen looked at Shane and smiled. Shane broke down in front of all of them and fell to the ground crying while the guys arrested Carmen)