Chapter 41

“Gill, slow down, you know I’m not used to this,” Tina yelled from about twenty feet behind Gillian.

Gillian turned smiling as slowed her horse.

“What’s the matter Mom, getting old,” Gillian teased.

“No, just not used to riding,” Tina said.

“Can I ask you a question?” Gillian said.

“You just did,” Tina said. Gillian made a face at her.

“You know how I said I didn’t want you and Bette to have kids right away,” She said.

“Yeah,” Tina said.

“I lied. You can have a baby as soon as you want too,” Gillian said.

“Okay. But, honey why did you lie,” Tina asked.

“Because I’m not sure that I will like sharing you or Bette with someone else. I want a little sister or brother, but I rarely get to see you as it is, throw another kid in the mix and I won’t get to see you at all. I don’t care if that makes me sound like a selfish,” Gillian said.

“It’s okay to feel any way that you do. Bette and I haven’t discussed having anymore kids other than the fact that we both want to have more. It may be a year or two or maybe even more. When we do decide to have more kids you will be involved in the decision to a certain degree,” Tina said.

“Okay,” Gillian said. Tina could tell she had fully extinguished Gillian’s worries.

“When we do have kids it won’t mean that we will love you any less. Besides you’ll probably see more of me than you want to,” Tina said.

“Why is that?” Gillian asked.

“Cause I think I may want to take time off from work while I’m pregnant and until the baby goes to school. I did the same while I was pregnant with you and stayed home with you until you went to kindergarten,” Tina said.

“Oh yeah, I forgot,” Gillian said.

“This looks like a good place for a picnic. Why don’t I set up and you go tie the horses up,” Tina said.