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How could you forget us? Chapter 10
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Chapter 10
Bette made several attempts to meet with Tina during the week that followed but was put off by Tina’s studio schedule or her time with her Pam. Bette thought dinner with Tina without Angelica would be the best option to sit down and talk about their relationship and how to move forward in a healthy way. It was hard for Tina to contemplate letting go of Bette but in her heart and mind she recognized that Bette had moved on. She sensed from Bette’s tone in her numerous calls this week that this was the likely conversation but she just was not ready to hear it from Bette’s lips. Even though in her head she knew it was time, her heart was not ready for the pain of accepting that Bette was once and for all gone, not just in a physical sense but also in an emotional sense.
The relationship with Pam was moving slowly as they continued to learn more about each other. There was no pressure from either to move it to a sexual level, although the thought crossed both their minds often. They wondered if Tina’s angst about Bette would still be present if Pam did not “kill the mood” on their first date. Now they were tentative about moving in that direction. One thing they certainly had in common was their lingering attachment to their exes, who were for each, the love of their lives. Tina thought Pam kept part of herself partially closed off and probably used her work as a way to keep women at bay. Pam offered a lot to any woman but Tina could sense and understood her hesitation given the result of her most significant relationship.
Helena had kept Bette at bay to allow them both to reflect on the relationship they were in. Bette was beginning to realize that Helena was right, she and Tina had never let each other go. Their relationship had become destructive relationship for the past few years yet they continued to return to each other. They loved each other passionately in the beginning but somewhere along the way, their communication broke down seriously. They allowed multiple people into the relationship which caused so much pain for everyone. They each moved from bed to bed then back to each other for feigned security, but soon found one was in the bed of someone else. They lashed out at each other in response to the pain the other elicited further continuing the destructive circle. They tried to be civil for the sake of civility and more for the sake of Angelica but found they could easily get in to a full blown argument reflective of the pain they were harboring over the past few years.
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Gosh this is so hheart breaking. How could Bette be this cruel to Helena?? One moment she’s telling Tina thngs are finished between them and she wants to move on with Helena and the other minute she’s f*cking Tina???? (shock) How can you do that? I don’t understand either you want to be with someone or you don’t but this is sick. I’m pretty sure she vlew it all now, Helena will never take her back and to be honest I wouldn’t either. What a fuck up, djeez. I can’t blame Alice for being upset seeing how Bette just hurt one of her best friends. Damn Tina should have kept her hands to herself and let go like Pam told her too, why is it she always wants Bette back when Bette is involved with someone???
Squirl, that was… awesome in its drama. I can’t believe how complicated this all just got… cos of course, it wasn’t complicated *at all* before. But Bette… I can’t believe she just did that. Maybe it’s what she needed to work Tina out of her system? And what was that between Helena and Pam? I’m too caught up in the drama of it all to root for any pairing. This story, Squirl, is great. Really, I think it’s fantastic. Do post more when you can. I’m thoroughly enjoying it. Thanks for this chapter
The care you take with each storyline is what makes this a great story!
That was amazingly dramatic. I could picture all that transpired. Bette just can’t keep it in her pants, can she? Tina is her kryptonite. If though I’m a huge TiBetter, I thought that Bette being a willing accomplice to this love tryst, was low even for her. Just a great story, expertly written. PPS.
Squirl I am in anguish over what Bette and Tina just did….and to hurt Helena as Bette is now feeling the mistake she made and to hear the Helena has taken the job to take over the foundation,,sure hope Bette is able to get her act together take responsiblity and get the woman she truly loves..Helena. Great chapter
The thing I notice with Helena is when you break that trust with her it’s hard to get it back. I don’t agree with some comments that Helena should get involed with Pam, she has unresolved feelings regrading her ex that hasn’t allowed her to move on just as Bette. IMO if Helena get involed in a relationship with Pam she would in a sence be walking into the same situation as with Bette. Helena shouldn’t take the job at Peabody Foundation, she should go to NY for a month and spend some time with her children and clear her head. Helena needs to find someone who is capable and willing to start a healthy relationship with her. Bette needs to move on and get some help so she can learn to respect herself again. Bette’s problem is that she doesn’t want to admit that she can’t control her heart and everything around her. She wants to make childish mistakes and expect everybody to pity and forgive her. I just don’t see Helena forgiving Bette for this incident…one thing that Helena has (no matter how hard times gets) that Bette doesn’t have is pride and confident.
Oh, wow ! Drama, drama, drama ! I’m looooving this, Squirl. I am. Great chapter ( as usual ). The least one can say is that you know how to keep your readers thrilled. As for the development of this story, although I’ll admit I had guessed a little before the end of this chapter that Helena would accept the position in New York in order to run away from Bette, Bette is totally responsible for this debacle. No one can blame Tina here in my opinion. She had made her wishes perfectly clear right from the start and she certainly didn’t pressure Bette into doing anything that she didn’t want to do. I mean, let’s be honest, Bette was clearly not “sacrificing” herself to “console” Tina. These two will never be over one another. They just have too much history together. They know each other too well . They have too many things in common. Too many memories. And for better or worst, I do think they deserve each other. Besides, no matter how hard Bette will try to make another relationship work ( and I think she genuinely tried with Helena and she never wanted to hurt her ), I personally believe that what happened in this chapter could happen again, especially since B & T cannot stop seeing each other, if only because of Angelica. As a matter of fact, this kind of “slip-up” is bound to happen again in my opinion. Besides, I might be wrong of course, but I don’t believe Bette was that tipsy… Was she ? At any rate, whether Bette will be able to get Helena’s forgiveness and trust back or she won’t ( it won’t be easy, especially since I don’t see Bette begging and I don’t think Helena would like to see her begging ), I’m dying to know where you’re going to take this story. Thank you for another veeery enthralling chapter, Squirl.
Again I say, cheating is ok with Tina if she gets what she wants..
*Falls over breathless, trying to catch my breath after a full day of catching up*…. OMG… I like it… and I like the promise of some mayhem, but that’s me! Ask Sea, I have a thing for… well, twists and turns. You’re a great writer, please follow just ya heart and do what needs to be done to keep ya story true… *goes to get something to drink….*
Wow, Squirl, I didn’t see any of that coming! Tina crossed that line again, and Bette was a fool to cross it with her! I wonder how Pam feels about Tina right about now? The “framily” is truly disappointed in Bette right now, and rightfully so. A shame that Helena is running away. I agree that she should go to NYC for an extended family visit but not move, thus abandoning the Center kids. It doesn’t make sense for her to leave a place that, until this craziness, was the place she wanted to stay. Bette was not drunk. She hasn’t fully let go, but I don’t think she’s still in love with Tina. Bette does need to take a chill pill and sort out where she is with all these women! Helena would have to exhibit God’s forgiveness to get past Bette’s latest action! You’ve got a lot of folks rooting for whatever pairing (if any) you want this to end with–not sure who else could pull that off around here! And we will have to start a discussion thread for this story! LOL PPS!!!!
i didn’t see that coming either…i realize that people can’t go easily after the love is gone…but the saying is..there’s a thin line between love and hate…and it’s horrible the devastation b&t leave in their wake…it would be nice for them to split once and for all…whether h is there or not…but dang, how must she feel, she’s proven her love for bette..it’s just like..grow the “f” up…excellent update…as another reader indicated, very uncomfortable..but real and really good!! PPS
Bette: “Tina, that was a mistake. It meant nothing to me. I don’t want to pursue us again. I don’t want to work it out. I love Helena and I want to be with her.”Tina:”You weren’t thinking about Helena when you f***d me. You weren’t thinking about her when I had my fingers on your clit…”Bette: “tina I’m sorry that was a mistake. I’ve had too much to drink. I…F**K!….I have no excuse. Shit.”(Very mature Bette). This is chapter is unaxpected. I kinda’ thought that B&T will respect each other’s choices and be good friends for angel’s sake… the twist of the story is hearthbreaking. I feel for Helena and Tina. Bette hurting their feelings.. Tina might have started to kiss Bette but, if bette loves and respect Helena and just wanted to be friends with T..I dont think she will not be able to control herself having sex with Tina. Something is wrong with Bette… She cheated on Tina before and now she cheated on Helena with Tina. Poor Helena was both cheated by Bette and Tina (remember the after sonogram B&T bed scene.)Helena don’t deserve these two. Helena was falling with tina in in season 2 and now is inlove with bette. I hope Helena will accept that job in New York and make herself busy, although the community center will miss her, but she just don’t deserve to be played by bette. I don’t see any building reltionship with her and Pam. maybe? Only the author knows. With regards to Tina,…with what bette told her after sex being not meant anything… Tina must felt used. I hope Tina will never ever beg for Bette’s love. Geezzz, Bette is acting like a man. alibi being drunk. Oh my.. It’s time for Tina to move on…Time for Helena to find someone who will love, be loyal and respect her. With the big. For Bette, she better leave town and find a cure for her ego and selfishness. Thank you Squirl…PPS
The reason I love so much Belena fanfic is all the great sex I read between the two. Great authors on this board like Helebette, zheese, Speed Racer, ashtuck and you Squirl never disappoint in that department. But I am loving this story so much regardless of the sex between the two. This story could have NO sex (please don’t do that to us, though) and still be EXCELLENT! The characters are truly believable and the emotions you evoke in your story telling cannot be ignored. In whatever way you take this story, it is sure to be a gem and an award winner. I just hate seeing my girl (Helena) hurt at all. Keep up the good work!
No, no, no….this is horrible! I can’t believe what i just read. Bette can not be that STUPID; can she? Not 2 minutes before she whispering in helena’s ear about how much she missed and wanted to be w/ her and then she turns around and f**** Tina. And Helena’s event no less – WHY Bette WHY??? No one is that sex crazed. And obvioulsy Bette doesn’t want Tina or else she would not have been so cruel in turning her away after Tina admits to still being in love w/ her. Ok, squirl – no death threats, just one confused reader here. I don’t know how you’re going to write your way out of this one. Where things stand right now Helena is moving to NY, Tina is heartbroken by Bette, and Bette has made probably the biggest and dumbest mistake of her life. Good luck writing yourself out of this whole Squirl……was it all some horrible dream….i sure hope so (for Bette’s sake). PPS!
Bettefortina I have created a mess now haven’t I. ;-0
BTW my partner is mad at me too for this turn of events. I guess we just all have to see how folks get dug out.
WOW.. bette is still the pooty chasing dog,lol, that was terrible what she did to both helena and tina. she tells tina no more “us” then shags her, poor heloena is waiting for bette to get her act together. I think pam and tina would make a good couple as well pam and helena, bette, oh poor needs to stay and get her head outa her ass. she is making things so much worse by going back and forth…tina and bette need to sit down and talk and clear the air…
Hello Squirl, that was so heart breaking. As much as I love Bette and Helena I really think Bette just needs to leave her be. What she just did with Tina is unforgivable… after telling Tina that she wanted it to work with Helena she goes and does that… I can see Pam and Tina working it out… and at this very moment I can see Pam and Helena making a go at it… but as for Bette I think she needs to leave everything as is. She is in an emotional place that just gets more complicated the more layers she continues to allow added. At this moment Helene definitely needs better then Bette and so does Tina. I absolutely love how you have layered this story creating such an emotionally complex situation for Bette, she has no place to go, she is making her Bed in loneliness and until she can be happy with herself she is not going to be able to provide anyone with anything more then a sexual relationship. Hmmmm like I said as much as I wanted things to work out for Bette and Helena she has a life times worth of soul searching before she can get there. Absolutely brilliant, loved it. Sincerely, JC
Hello again, I just re-read this chapter and from everything that just happened to Bette I can just imagine her anguish, she always thought herself full of self control and yet she has none at all. After yet again disappointing her entire family, the reactions from Shane and Alice should have torn her heart out. I can almost see Bette trying to take her own life, with everything so screwed up with Helena, and this whole situation, she must feel so worthless… I don’t even think she could look into the eyes of her own daughter after realizing how much she has hurt the two women that she idolizes and considers her other mothers. Bette is in such a low place right now and this is when she is at her most self-destructive. Sincerely, JC
hehehe…that was great in the sense that it was soooo uncomfortable, and so interesting and such loopdee loops with the storyline…very unexpected in a good way. of *course* i’d wanna kill tina and bette right now, and of course i feel badly for helena, and i think that bette is a low down dirty dawg…but those issues are seperate from the fact of my ongoing interest in this story reaching whichever conclusions you would draw for it. do i detect a pam falls for helena leaving bette and tina to their dysfunctions kinda ending? i’d rather a ‘bette grows the f*** up and begs for helena’s forgiveness and acts like an adult and they maybe work it out’ kinda ending…along with a ‘tina falls off a cliff while pam finds someone better for her’ kinda ending…but you know, squirl, i trust that wherever you take it, i will continue to be enthralled:) pps!!!
Tibette, in this story is not finished. Obviously Bette was unable to stop herself and without the “pervious” excuses. Bette needs to go back into therapy and give that relationship some honest thought. It may or may not work, but there is residual feeling on a very powerful level that must be looked at. Helena is a big girl and knows the score with those two. “if bette comes back….” well then you know that saying…..tks
I can’t believe everyone is blaming Bette for this. Tina came after her..knowing Bette is with Helena. She iddn’t respect Bette or her relationship. She wanted a fuck, and she got one, what is she crying about? Tina is a hypocritical bitch. Bette did do wrong in crossing that line,absolutely, and she does need to figure out what she wants,and I can only hope helena will forgive her at some point, but I hold tina to blame for this.
damn woman, my stomach was clenched the whole time i was reading this chapter, bette better grow the hell up, please don’t make helena leave, i luv them together, great, great job!!!!
Damn You Bette!! She is continually making the situation worse. She must feel so low. I feel terrible for Helena, here she is trying to wait for Bette to get her stuff together and what does Bette do, she f***s Tina in the study. Love your writing it makes me feel so many emotions. PPS
you know, i was thinking about this again:1. bette and tina aren’t necessarily ‘in love’ in this story, nor do they necessarily have to explore their residual feelings. they may have to leave each other aloooone and stop flogging one another (hehe) with the leftovers of their bitternesses and betrayals. just cuz two people get it on with some angry sex, it does NOT mean that they should be together. ew, quite the opposite often enough2. bette and helena aren’t necessarily finished because helena herself has isues with the cheating game. i think that a belena story WITHOUT some outside temptation is a bit suspect actually…i’ve often wondered this about my own stories, given helena nad bette’s histories3. bette doesn’t have to kill herself, but i did wonder if she would…hope she doesn’t, cuz really, it’s just a quick f** in an office, some of us have done worseand on that note, i would say that this story IS so very interesting, because it reflects those difficulties back to us. no ‘happily ever after’ cinderella nonsense here! lol…good show squirl, that’s the *second* time i’ve thought about this story in the shower, pondering endings and possibilities and ideas. LOL
Oh, there are so many different layers to this story…so much going on with each character. I love it that I can start a chapter thinking I know which direction you are going in, and then have you go in the complete opposite!! I am enjoying this story because I don’t know how it is going to end, and because I care about all four of these women…Bette, Tina, Helena, Pam…enough to want them all to be happy and in love at the end, no matter who their partner may be. Thanks!!!
Reread the chap, and still came to the same conclusion. It is almost is like B&T are “addicted” to one another, and not in a healthy way. Like Bette is an alcoholic, and Tina is the alcohol. You KNOW it is for the best jto stay away, yet every so often you can fall of the wagon. It hurts and disappoints everyone around you, yet you still are tempted and fall. Tina was, and is unrelenting, should Bette know better? Yeah, given their history, but if she strong enough? NO. Helena moving across country is good, maybe if Bette gets therapy and follows her, removing herself from temptation, and giving a fresh start to her and helena. Sorry, I ramble..had a lot of addicts in my family..sex,alcohol,drugs, even food. Kinda’ understand, that feeling of a “controlled helplessness” to it. Breaks my heart heart to see it, what it can do to ones around you, friends ,family, etc. I maybe way off from how you are going with this..just thought I give my two sense to how I see it..Enjoying it..PPS
I guess this was meant too happen. I know sometimes we make decisions or act upon feeling that are at times not healthy for us. But it can become a cycle that is hard to break. Example Bette and Tina. While it took a quick f**k on Bette’s part to figure out that this may not be what she really wants . Sex is a very powerful act. Sometimes you think you’re feeling something that you’re actually not. And when it’s over you’re left feeling empty. I love this story no matter how it may end. The human mind is quite fragil and it’s no wonder it can be easy manipulated too think or behave a certin way. We all have our comfort levels and Bette and Tina are no different. As long as they continue to hold on to their past they have no future, with no one else. This was indeed an excellent update.
Hello again (again), I completely agree with helebette in what she is talking about here, when it comes to Bette and Tina just leave it, be civil for your daughters sake but they don’t need to resolve anything… they are both to far gone to resolve the real issues in their lives. They both need to grow up and stop putting other people in the middle of there Shi#, in the end I can feel Helena’s pain but at the same time she has to take some responsibility for this, she pushed Bette to resolve her issues and unfortunately as is in Bette’s nature she didn’t know how to properly do that, for her the physical comes much to easy and the emotional comes a far distant second. If she needs to resolve some stuff with Tina do it over the phone… make sure you don’t put yourself in a compromising situations, and Bette should have known better anyways after her failed attempt to Bed Helena at this event she should have pulled herself away from any physical situation with anyone… she was setting herself up. You really are pulling out everything from me today my lady, I love it. Sincerely, JC
Lmao=so much for ‘Ms Monogamy’…Freakin’ hell what is Bette Porter doing???? And why do some people always blame Tina and not make Bette responsible for her actions??? I’ve lived this shit and it ain’t fun to be Tina…who is still in-love with Bette, who only wants the love of her life back and ‘their dream’ of a family…whilst Bette has so many options she ends up just using & abusing women, no wonder Helena was barfing…it is sickening & cruel and still Bette Porter (since s1) can only focus on Bette Porter even now she wants to say ‘sorry’ to Helena/blame the drink/blame Tina=how despicable??!!! Remember she did the same number with Tina after she’d had her fill of screwing Candace. Even the phone call back to Tina about the senator was like rubbing Tina’s nose in the fact that BP could virtually get any woman e.g. the twink!!! I actually thought Tina & Helena made a nice couple. Maybe Pam & Tina could be good together but not while Bette is tooing and froing with Tina’s heart. Best option for Tina…make the hard decision & walk away from BP, you deserve better; same advice for Helena…and Pam stay right out of the triangle; with all the hurt & grief you’ve been thru you don’t need more shit. So if Pam is attracted to Tina I think that just got blown by tonight’s events. Someone needs to take an axe to Ms Porter’s fingers so they can no longer wander wherever the mood takes her. This stuff you r writing is so crazily true!!! Eventually the Bette Porter’s of this world end up sad and alone because women figure them out. Helena, Tina & Pam deserve to be loved and Ms Porter truly requires therapy…U cannot just fuck your ex-wife then tell her it was an alcohol fuelled mistake and go looking for your present girlfriend no doubt to play the victim again and again, endlessly. But as I said last time, Helena knew what she was getting into with Bette, she has the analysis but not the rationality to walk away…well, she didn’t but now it seems she will leave Ms Porter’s sorry fickle ass. At least Tina has been straight up in your story she wants her wife back home on the verandah not wandering around in other womens’ arms/beds. Just like in s1, it is Bette who is having the conflict…”am I falling out of love with Tina?” (s1)…”I can’t have her so I want her” (s2)…”I’ve got her so I’ll just focus on ME again” (s3)…”I’ll show HER” (S4)…WHAT A FRICKIN’ MESS!!! Ms Porter is following in her daddy’s footsteps “I had to do what I had to do to ensure my own happiness” and too bad who gets hurt in the mix!!! e.g. Kit’s mom, Bette’s mom and his various lovers no doubt. My my Bette Porter is a chip off the old block or as they say ‘the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree’… PPS