Previously…

I hear screaming… everything goes into slow motion as I see Shane slowly dropping to her knees and blood starts to pour out of her chest.  I catch her as she falls back.

“Shane!” I cry and scream at the same time, applying pressure to her wound is the only thing that I can think of doing.  But blood keeps pumping out of her body.

I keep on repeating, “Shane!  Don’t leave me!”  She tries to tell me something but blood is choking her and …

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Ch 13

Carmen’s POV

“Carmen… Carmen… wake up!!  Wake up!! It’s just a bad dream!”  Shane is shaking my shoulders violently.

“Oh God! Shane!  You are alright!”  I wake up soaking in sweat and panting.   I put my head against her chest, wanting to hear her heart beats, wanting to make sure that I am not dreaming.

“Baby, it was so real, I thought I lost you!”  I cry hysterically and my heart still cringes whenever I recall the scene when she got shot.

“Do you want to tell me what you saw?”

“No.”  I shake my head in her embrace.

“OK. But I am here. It’s just a dream, princess.” She repeats, stroking my face.  My tears are falling uncontrollably and she kisses them away.

“Shane, I want you to promise me something…”  I say in between my sobs.

“Anything, anything you want. Sleep now…”  She says softly. 

The steady sound of her heart beats sound like a lullaby to me and it’s slowly comforting me to sleep again. 

I am such a mess, and am supposed to be the older woman in this relationship?  Love does make people dumber.  I never thought it could literally make me dumber.

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Thanks to my genius girlfriend who announced our relationship last night, there were some paparazzi waiting outside the hospital when I arrived at work.   At first, I thought they were waiting for someone famous which is not an unusual sight at the hospital, famous people for get sick too.  Well until they called my name out and started asking personal questions about Shane and I… I am not stupid enough to tell them anything other than ‘no comment’.