Window of Opportunity

Chapter 4

As I awoke on this Saturday morning, I really felt hopeful. Hopeful that the girls would able to see that I was incredibly sorry for the way I have behaved toward them and sincere in my desire to work through my differences with Tina. If nothing else, I realized that I needed to cleanse myself of the feelings I have and if they respond well, great. If not, then that just means I have more time and energy that needs to be exerted toward ensuring that they do know how much they mean to me.

Kit and I have had problems throughout our lives and we have finally gotten to a point that we are good. My having the colossal mistake of an affair was really what we needed to get to this point. I had always held her to such a high standard and forgot that she was human with faults and weaknesses. Her alcoholism disrupted our lives so many times due to broken promises and regrets that came too late. As I sat in my ivory covered throne, I thought that she was weak yet I never realized how strong she was until she was there picking me up. She always deferred to me because my Type A personality demanded it but given the need, she was able to step up to the plate. Maybe if I had shown her some compassion earlier she would not have grasped her drink more firmly than her family. Daddy, of course did not help. He was forever shooting down any notion of success that she may have pursued and because her music was out of my realm of comfort, I did not embrace it like I should. She never let me down though even at the worst when all I wanted to do was push her away. She took my abuse, left and then came back for more. I do not know what I would be like had she not been there when Tina and I broke up.

I was a broken mess for months after Tina left me and Kit sat with me, held me, listened to me and just was there to support me. She taught me what it meant to have unconditional love….since my love had always had conditions on it. Regardless to how bad things became with Tina and I, she was always a support to both of us and she thought Angie walked on water. As far as being an aunt, she was the best that Angie could have ever wanted and Angie in turn loved her.