Window of Opportunity

Chapter 7

Previously:

As I pulled myself out of Alice’s grasp so I could really go get more drinks I looked at them and decided that we needed a little levity and I knew the perfect way. “Alice, you asked if Jodi and I were getting married. I know that she has been in touch with each of you about our anniversary party and not only is there not going to be a wedding but there is also no need for an anniversary party.” And with that, I slid open the patio door and walked into the kitchen to grab some wine and seltzer water. I could not resist looking over my shoulder and saw three stunned women standing there with their mouths open and smiles on their faces.

Entering the kitchen I leaned against the counter and took a moment to collect my thoughts.  As happy as I was with the way the evening was unfolding, I was still exploring such new territory with expressing my feelings. On one hand I was on such a high because I felt so connected with everyone yet on the other hand, I was tired. It was exhausting to me to open up and share with them. My feelings being put on display was not something that came easily to me and having fought it for so long, I almost felt out of control. This though, was good practice for me. In order to have a conversation with Tina, I was going to need to be able to knock down any walls that were there and be open and honest with her. As scared as I was at that thought, the timing was right and this time in my life seems like the time to take that window of opportunity that was presenting itself and just go for it. Opening myself up with all my thoughts, fears, dreams, vulnerabilities and wishes would be the only way to approach Tina and tomorrow would be the day to contemplate that. Tonight, hiding in my kitchen was not an option so I grabbed a tray to place the tiramisu, plates, glasses filled with cordials and coffee for Kit and headed back outside to the patio where my family sat quietly talking among themselves.